Tanweiting`s

22April

2007-04-21T11:05:00.000-07:00

(Past) dunman up against dunman high

Focus & spot me. haha

Inter-national friendship day :D

Wo hen lei , hen xiang shui jiao. Wo ye hen ai shui jiao !
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAS

I think i snd like some primary school kid learng cheena -.-

But true la , am really tired okay , it`s 2am right nw.
I`m mugging chemistry uh.

ZOMG :) I`m a happy kid bcos i can concentrate like finally.
bcos Chew`s back.

21April

2007-04-21T06:44:00.000-07:00

Didn`t wen f homeu trng tdy, Wo hen xiang qu. But I need t off t school f lessons.
I need big help f my Chemistry ! Infact i need help f the rest of my subjects.
Sigh T.T

Also on the other hand ,
Wo hen lei ler.

it`s like i`m really stressed over studies. After tdy chem lessons , i almost wnted t cry out loud jst bcos i feel tht i`ve nt been putting in effort this year. It seems tht i dont knw a single shit abt some subjects.
Midyear`s jst 13 more days t g & right nw i`m rushg over t get evry single things in my head.

I`ve tried my best alrdy. Really :(

So ,right nw i`ve t mug as much as possible by tonight &get evrything done
so i can concentrate on the main subjects by tmr.

BFF /FAT :D hinthint uh , hehehes you sld knw what i`m sayg.
good study enviroment + yummy food = Vivo :D

Dear diary , Get well soon :D Thanks f being my chinese dictionary but it doesn`t work. So sad can :(
Shit my comp , thts why i`m typing hanyu pinyin.

Wo de tian , Wo hen xiang nian ni ! I knew wad happened , Tho i dont knw how you`re feelg but cheerup please. Get back nd contact me soon luh :( Without your presence , i`l get distracted easily.
I MISS YOU TERRIBLY , CHEW :(

20April

2007-04-20T07:33:00.000-07:00

Arh mygod , tho am such a physics loser but i tried my best in the paper alrdy. Geog test postpone t nxt wed , damnit. I`ve alot of retests &tests nxt week &I`ve alot of homeworks t get it done during weekends. My evyryday life`s terrible horrible vegetable alrdy uh.

off t support sch netball cdiv national final at toapayoh after sch , congrats on getting champ :D &I think tht raffles`s tcher or sth is such a sore. But i think raffles people have nice deep voice , coolcool (:D)

Team,jiamin &Spastic came t my hse f pillowfights ! Haahas , nt jst tht uh many other fun things t d in my hse.
Called Kfc delivery cos we`re lazy people. Best part was stil all 11 of us sit tgr in my room & bitched arnd :D

ohoh nd bloody toots people are jst don`t uds me. Stop being so (A-Z) nd basketball is my passion. Don`t stop me. Al those efforts put in , is jst t b a better plyer. But i gain no trust like as if i`m nt tht independent at al.
on the other hand , i`m always the one who gt attitude evn if it`s my bad or nt.

Chemistry tmr w mates. and i`m rushg over t mug as fast as i cld this weekends nd get evry piece of homework done asap. God bless me 'cause am havg a very bad flu.

I miss stupid earthling out there :D I miss stupid chew actually.

19April

2007-04-19T08:48:00.000-07:00

HomeU trng over at mha , jst gt home. Trng is pretty alrgt but I`m nt on form tdy :( Thers newcomers, peiqi or sth ? :D nd also clarissa, my lamerrrrr ! Almost gt scared out of my wits , Manager wnted us t run 10rnds in 3mins or sth but ended its jst false alarm la but she gt us Apples &oranges agn :D HEHES ! and wdh , jiaolian &manager decided nt t allow us t bathe during weekdays trngs. I`m nt comfortable being smelly plusplus i`m leaving at tampines uh , you knw how long the train ride is t novena.

ohoh , socialstudies lessons &remedials are enjoyable :D MrImran`s such a funny suan-er.
nd thers physics test & geog test f me. I`m another physics loser. Sigh , had been rush`g tru ytd but i don`t think i get a single shit. I`m so gna b dead.

Alrgt goodbye , I need t mug alrdy. I feel like slpg :(

18April

2007-04-18T00:31:00.000-07:00

EDIT /

I SAW MY ADORABLE EYECANDY (tht small malay guy , rmb ) :D AWW
-updated

Didn`t off t school tdy. Big time cramps -.-
I`m right nw mug`g f al my 3 tests.
& i don`t get any shit abt physics :(

goodbye.
Without your presence , i`ll get distracted.
I need chewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww:(

17April

2007-04-17T04:35:00.000-07:00

A talk w the P &VP this morng nd i`ve tried my best t put in good words alrdy.I knw its al jst out of cool nd misuds`g. Don`t worry uh , fan :) Cheerup!

okay i`ve no comment f school tdy. I`m tired of it alrdy. Didn`t wen t grab my ben &jerry`s too , sigh. Didn`t wen f Homeu trng tdy 'cause i`ve lots of things t mug nd get it done. So i`m able t mke it f this Thurs trng too ' cause thers combined sci tests the nxt day T.T

I`m alrdy feel`g damn down nd Thanks i gt a lecture.Iyah whatevr uh , I shal STFU. Tke it or leave it tho if you hav the rights. So what ? Fine thn , i`m a Fucktard.

& you`re right , friends t me are much better. They care , what abt you?
Ah forget it , goodbye. I neeed chew.

16April

2007-04-16T08:09:00.000-07:00

edit /

okay okay I forgot t post sth . HEHEHHEHHES !

THERES FREE ICE-CREAM CONE FRM 12pm-7pm FRM ANY BEN &JERRY`S OUTLETS IN SINGAPORE !
I`M GG T GRAB ONE W BRENDA &JANEY I GUES. IT`S SO GNA B GREAT BCOS I`M SO TEMPTED ! GRAB ONE F YOURSELF TOO , I BET IT`S GNA B SO ' ZOMG , HEAVEN LA ! :D '

but sad t say , i`m afraid i`m havg dnt mke up tmr. Pray hard , tht thers isn`t any :) But impossible la -.-

I neeed a break , mug`g is killing me :(

16April

2007-04-16T06:19:00.000-07:00

It`s monday agn. School is school. Thanks my left knee nd backbone gt worst after 2.4 but thanks t those tht mke me endure tru if nt i really gna be cryg out loud bcos of the pain. Nd Taneefan , I knw you`re a nice friend t me , I uds. I appreciate you :D

Evry Sec 3 classes perform`g during assembly tdy nd I`m hiding behind al the tall people. Lols , jst bcos i`ve stage fright la. wdvwdvwdv (!) But i stil think our performance kills evryone boredom :D evn those audience said so too. Well nd we won first agn ! HEHES , 3G ofcos !

Class bond gt better nd better each time , Am proud t b part of 3G!

Okay I realised i`ll cry out loud someday ltr. give me a break manzx , I`M TIRED ALRDY :(
Mug`g starts this week onwards. Al the best thn , goodbye

Sigh , I need Stupid.

15April

2007-04-15T08:43:00.000-07:00

Thanks t WongDawn tdy -.- Such Irritating rainbow pig uh. Had cafe cartel f lunch tdy nd thn wen t mug at Mac. Hello , we`re Maths losers. Xiaohei came nd save me before my brain cells are dead :D Dwn t sbc after tht t watch the Finals. My dear coach , Mrwong played f Minyi Team nd they won GuoDa the last sec , 65 t 63 :D A pity tht i came late if nt i`m sure i wil get t see his HOT THREE POINTS SHOTS !

Homeutd lost t QianXi ( Women) 42 t 49. But stil , i believed tht Dadui`s great tdy uh. I`ve met al my idols tdy :D
Homeutd number 7 , QianXi number 9 &Kembangan ubi number 12! Bcos they`re HOT 3-POINTS SHOOTERS. I swear their 3 points shots are SO HOT !
Homeutd won Tongwhye (Men) aftertht , I saw many familiar coaches tht i knw in TW team. Men`s shots are always tht Hot. HAHAHS !

Ohoh nd Manager bought f both youth &Dadui teams donuts frm Donuts Factory but I think is Jessie who queued f it Aww , It`s damn ultra heaven! Had peijing`s dad ride back home jst nw nd I think her family is damn good in communicating uh. How envy :D Thanks peijing f the ride !

Sigh , sch`s tmr nd thers 2.4 run f me :( I better pull it tru the last sec uh. I don`t wna stop due t my leftknee. Nomatter wad , AL THE WAY please!

nd you`re so perv / dumb / copycat / lousy , Chewjunquan :D

15April

2007-04-14T09:27:00.000-07:00

TERRIBLE YET ENJOYABLE SATURDAY (?) hahas

Congrats t cgirls on winning AIS 77 to 21 ( :D ) Well, dwn tmart mac t mug w Chan-mali-chan , pat , Curlyhair nd twins. Meiniu, fexible curve nd pikachu thn ltr tag along too ! Noisy juniors but adorable lah (:x)

Twins &pat

Cuemoh &Curlyhair

Chan-mali-Chan (:x)

' LARGE COKE W THREE SMALL CUPS PLEASE ! ' - Meiniu`s order.
Oh nd I had this Tiff w a ' whats your big fuck problem ' lady. Iyah , jst fill in the finger f me _?_ lah , old virgin.

Mu , fc &pika left nd the rest over t my hse f the air-con nd the Tv. Kingkong-ed halfway nd I had t rushed over t meet Spastic alrdy. So I gt ' Oiiiii~ weiting ' frm them bcos I off the Tv (:x) Lols ! nd they left w tht reluctant mood. So sorry okay !

Over t meet Spastic nd thn t 450 quickly. We`re late bcos Tiffany &Terence were alrdy there. So , Thankgod tht god stop the rain nd like Finally we get t ball tgr after so long :D.
Quek &Junquan came after tht too ! But Brother Terence cnt mke it bcos he`s workg.

:D Tiffany &Spastic.

Ger`s eyes ( o.o ) + my mouth (=D) equals t one Spastic.

Tho we managed t ball tdy but kinda Shag bcos ball`g w those other people is nt Fun f me lah. ndnd bcos I`ve lost touch tdy :( Which is like super sad please. Out of 10 shots , like only less thn 5 gt in. Wdf (?) Like am so useless jst nw lah s e r i o u s l y , I don`t knw wad t d -.- Shoot also cnt g in , Cut in worst stil kena tap dwn. Big sigh okay , wadevr :(

Anyw , I saw my this small little malay adorable eyecandy playg soccer jst nw ! He`s called Zul &he`ve gt his hair botak alrdy. Stil he`s stil tht adorable lah please.
Random Conver :
I said ' Hello! '
He said ' Hello! nvr play basketball uh? '
I said ' Nah , why you cut botak ? '
He said ' * TKE OFF CAP * hahas , see botak alrdy. '
I said ' you`re cute stil '
He said ' :D '

Nvrmind , I shall tke a picture w tht botak some day ltr :)

Off t tm nd waited f Joey. Dinner over at foodjunction.
Camwhored alot nd thn bus home w Spastic.

Look &FOCUS ON THIS PICTURE & THE ONE BELOW (:x)

5 STRAWS VS 2 STRAWS (!)

This is how she looks wen she`s pissedoff.

okay , i look like so crazy kiddo.

Random picture :

Ohoh I saw :D tdy. I was stunned btw. okay other thn tht , goodbye !

13April

2007-04-13T07:14:00.000-07:00

13April

2007-04-13T05:25:00.000-07:00

ITS THRIDTEEN THE FRIDAY ! freaky uh HEHES :D But thers nth special gg on -.-
So , tdy i STFU almost the whole day. Fill in the blank f me , Thanks -.-

Gt home w joey &megan after sch. Spastic came along too. Thn dwn over t Kfc f lunch nd did maths . Damnit , nw i`m stuck w some qns bcos Joey`s class was stil at one chpt behind me. Great , nw i`ve no tutor -.-Well gna mug over the days nd the past few weeks alrdy ! Bcos i gt motivated t study hard nd pass al f Midyear ! HAHAS , i knw i`ve chng , awwww (:x)

Oh thers Hot eyes lookg at me ZOMG -.-

Back t my past fav place , 800 plus t send Megan home nd thn took direct home too. Didn`t i tel you , I found a wallet at the opp seats bside me jst nw. 70bucks, keys nd posb card in there , nd i wen t report t the driver :D
SEEEEE , I`ve done a good deed , praise me f good (:x)

12april

2007-04-12T09:37:00.000-07:00

Hello it`s 12.30am right nw nd i jst gt home nt long ago. so mke it fast so i can g t bed soon.

Emaths test at the first period. And managed t do some tht i knw , al thanks t Tutor joey :D
SocialStudies test at the last two periods. I jst feel so happy over it bcos i wrote 2 nd a half page f the answer. The qns is ultra simple but my friends al was giving me tht crazy sigh sayg tht i`m crazy bcos i wrote non-stop.
Amaths test right after sch w prettybitch &co. We`re al damn stressed bcos out of 6qns , al was halfway done or nt done at al. I`m worst , startg 5 mins , i had been skip`g each qns. HAHAHAS , sigh nd we gave up in the end bcos we didn`t wna squeeze our bain cells.

Napfa test was postpone due t the rain , yay :D

Supposingly t stay back f the skit play or sth? But Thanks , what the bloody prb w tht bloody toot. T hell w you bastard (!) I don`t seems t see tht my talkg was tht pekchek t mke you misunderstand tht i was snd as if i`m blaming you. If you said you was jst giving a suggestion , thn why can`t I list out the bad point of it. The classrm was small indeed , how many of us are there. Was jst sayg tht , does tht snd as if i`m blaming ? In fact , if you think you`re at right thn too bad , other mates think you`re the one tht start getting the bloody attitude. Nt happy , thn slap me on the face ar. Come uh , ATTITUDE SUCK BIG BLOODY TIME. Whats f being so as if you`re tht great uh. nd nw , you mke me feel as if i haven`t been a good chairperson. What f i contribute so much f the class. Like tht i might as well don`t tke part. You stay , I leave. Sorry , i`m like tht. I don`t work w people like you. Nt evn a sorry nd nw people tot was me tht was at fault. Wadevr uh , thn stay away frm me uh. I shal STFU tmr uh.

So stupid t breakdwn jst bcos of this. Sorry , Zul i knw you care.

Train dwn t novena w xiaohei f homeu trng at mha. Trng was tiring but alrgt i gues. I need t buck up more ! nd teamates tdy are nicepeople :D Ended trng w a 10mins run agn :( Bathed , camwhored nd thn over f dinner at seveneleven. Train ride w ber , cherie , xiaohei &dawn first , thn al gt dwn first. Emo train/bus rides nd homed !

So so , ah goodnight earthlings :D
Dear diary , it`s coming back agn. w love , fucktard.

11April

2007-04-11T07:45:00.000-07:00

School = Stress ! :( Need t buck up on my Dnt alrdy , tcher told me tht i`m the most impressive student. Bcos whenever i come t think on ideas , i always take very long nd finally squeezed my brain cells tgr hard nd gt evrything taken dwn. My first priority , must b up t the highest standard nd mke it special among al.

other than tht , i`ve no comments.
out of random(ness) , Tofu`s back t sch. He gt white leg so he went leap`g al the way tru out tdy.Luckily , it`s jst a fracture on the soft bone if nt.. get well soon :D

FYI , Amaths Emaths nd SS TESTS tmr. Sigh , damnit stress :( ARGH (!)
nd sorry evryone f those who always ask me out. I`m afraid i won`t hav tht much tym t mke it f lunch or etc nowadays. I`m so damn busy this Term. So kristie , am nt sure of this friday`s lunch. I try alrgt :(
Sigh , keep a distance away frm me , I might g insane one fine day.
Emaths remedial after sch at o230 SHARP. so my dear classmates were plan`g t leave if Mrs wee nt coming on time. HAHAS situation gg on was ultra funny, I tel you.

Classmates : o230 alrdy ! Mrs wee haven`t come.
prettybitch : wait another 3 mins uh :)
2mins 50 sec later....
Tofu : 10 , 9 , 8, 7 ..... ( Evryone full of excitments esp prettybitch, get`g ready t go off. )
CLassmates : 3 , 2 ,1 ! Yay , lets g :DDDDDDDD
So, Darren nd prettybitch were the first t g out. Thn they went back into the class agn.
Prettybitch : iyah sian ar , Mrs wee come liao !
Classmates : HUH , SIAN LIAO AR. HAIS :(
Darren & prettybitch : HAHAHHA , BLUFF YOU WAN LA ( :x )

Hahas , thts how bloody fun my class can be :D

Was mug`g f tests tdy. Dwn t inter t meet joey w spastic nd gt tutor Joey t help me out w Emaths. HEHES , Tho`s Funny but uds(able) :D Supposed t dwn t sbc t watch match but Mum hold me back last min bcos sch`s tmr. So over t starbucks f Emo-self mug`g [: w caramel frap! nd thn homed.

Napfa test tmr , I aim f a 210 f stand`g board , 10sec f shuttle :D Shall see thn !

HEHES > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_ihEQlIJOIA
__________________________

Dear diary , i`m ultra sad &confuse alrdy. Sigh :(

w love , Fucktard.

10april

2007-04-10T07:21:00.000-07:00

DNT kills , i`ve nt yet decide what ideas sld b my main focus. Damnit nd nw , evryday we`ve t stayback f mkeup. Sigh :(

3G1 class had moved up t 4F air-con classroom :D nd my grp of emaths peeps had t g up f lessons bcos we`ve lesser number thn the other grp :D How great uh bcos it`s air-con. But the classroom is damn freakg small.
Oh , we had fun in there bcos Mrs wee was on MC. So we jst chill out f the whole 2 periods !

Had english paper 2 tdy. Was play`g talk`g w deskmate while do`g. Hahahs !
We`re violent people , you slap me, i slap you -.-

Last 2 periods were free agn bcos Mrimran on Mc too. So class kept sing'g nd sing'g tgr was damn awesome!
Having Dominant.Influencing.Steady.Compliant profiling workshop after school. Sec three`s camp this upcoming june so they wna knw wad type of character are you. I think the workshop gt me knw more on myself whether if i`m like this or tht. It`s really quite inspirational :D

oh , prettybitch`s I / Darren`s S / Kel`s C / Math`s D nd I`m D.S.C ! The only special one tht gt mixed characters. ZOMG ! But its quite true anyw , so yeap.

Sec one`s havg trng , played ball w them. nd also watch my school soccer boys vs Pasir ris. I think they`re so Hotttttt (!) Esp tht eyecandy of mine :D Goodgame uh.

Homed after tht nd Mum gt me a new fone alrdy. But I stil miss my baby :(
Didn`t tke Amaths test jst nw , sigh tht mean i`m gna hav Four tests tmr.
Amaths , Emaths , English , Chinese ! Sighzxz :(

Oh nd nw , I kinda feel pekchek over it. Damn , joey called me PCk ( Pekchek kia ) Wdv uh , I don`t uds whats gg on.

9april

2007-04-09T04:35:00.000-07:00

Boohoo , it`s Mondayyyyyyyy blue~ School lessons kills as bored as usual. Sigh ,i`ve like gt t run my 2.4 tht nxt lesson bcos i gt myself injuried in the damn bloody knee during the second rnd.
Oh , was talkg t my human diary Victoria during Amaths. Bcos I knw she knw something :D HEHES ! nd , she`s my BIGGEST LOVE !

Hello my human diary , since you can talk. So is dancing too. Dance the Rain`s dancesteps f me t laugh manzx ! We knw how t dance it in the ugly way but Rain`s one is Hot. I shall rant it out tmr f you t takenote in the diary !

Oh we did target set'gs tdy. nd mine was al in the messed. So i think i shall re-do it nd get it al neatly plan well in order t get motivation t study f mid-year :D Righttttttt ! It`s so gna b a real busy Term.

CCAs had alrdy stop , but juniors had trng tdy. The 3 of us don`t hav t come. So wen home w them over at my hse stoning away on my bed. Dwn t meet Ger after her sch. Kris came along f lunch too. Quek nd peggy were ther at Kfc, So we joined in the fun :D Oh , i saw this Hot- angmo- type lookg guy. He`s so Hot pls ! HEHES (:x)
Gt pissed off w the service by those kfc crews , freakg slow like snails. Nd how suay , I gt a deep cut on my leg. Damn t tht sharp metal at the side of the wall. ' I WAN T SEE YOUR MANAGER ! ' Lols !

Okay , Kris owes me a letter [: Yeahyeah !
Gt homed nd mug f tests. Nd i`m damn drop dead exhausted.

Was god damn disgusted by Chewjunquan`s typing way. He talked t me in al those twit wrds. Like these > Hiies ,guddnitess and Etc. I swear he`s damn pro at it. I stil can`t believe he knws how t type al those. Stunned! Such a gayboy but he doesn`t wna admit -.-

Okay i`ve nth else better t say alrdy i gues.I`m exhausted. So nth gets into my mind. Bye thn !

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UwcSfGHcZK8 (must watch)
Another clip by Terence. I think this wan is awesome but too sick t believe tht such tyco-ness actually exist.
HAHAH , Much comments on tht ' KENA BUWANG IN THE FACE PERSON ' haha , you sld knw who (:x)

9april

2007-04-08T09:22:00.000-07:00

Awww , am suppose t b stayg at home nd study tdy. Seriously nt in the mood t g out bcos i`m so lazy.
But , Diana asked me out t acc her so f her sake , I did. nd supposingly t ball on evry Sundays , But seems tht evryone can`t mke it. So sad please , it`s jst only once a week t meet up w the same old frens t ball at 450. But it`s like so difficult.It`s okay , i`m an uds`g person rightttttt ! Shal mke it t nxt Sat afternoon thn , so hey
those tht suppose t ball w , tel me if you can mke it thn (?) :D

So , asked Quek &Ger along too. Thank you la , Ger. I knw you`re lazy too but f my sake okay (:x) HEHES !
Ger was ultra late, meet her at 2 which we`re suppose t meet the rest at 2 Sharp nd only reached t meet the both of them at 2.30 Sharp ! Oh I wen t asked the hp shop f help bcos my phone spoilt , but the person said they can`t save , it`s too late alrdy :( But , the other day i asked , they said Can please ! WDH , So it`s can or not (?) MANZXZX , nvrmind i`m nt giving up! I shall g t other shops nd check it out agn ! Please save my baby :(

Had Tori-Q f lunch nd thn train dwn t marina square. Wanted t g town but was rain'g. So idea crossed out ! Thn al the sudden , they said they wanted t sing ! So we wen f KBOX ! HEHES , sang f 3hours plus nd I think its great sing'g out loud. Don`t playplay bcos i can sing. But the glass is break'g bcos Quek sang ! HAHAHS , JK LAH , Quek (:x) I wna g Kbox agn bcos I wna sing out al my unhappiness ! But those Emo songs almost gt me cry out loud manxzx , how Ironic please !

Left at 7Sharp , strolled alittle nd thn back t tamp. Gt into seperate ways , was w Ger t singtel t ask f Help but t no avail ! Supposed t g cs nd meet Quek &Diana back but was tired alrdy. So goodbye t them ! Wen mac f takeaways , saw WEE KIM SIONG &co. Long time no see , so we messed up his pretty hair ! So called style t him la ( wadevr ) He`s ultra vain like girls , can`t stand him ! nd He poke us back at the stomach , thts like so painful ! Bullied nd thn we runaway home ! HEHES :D

Thank f sent'g me home uh , Ger. actually you also hav gt no choice right , you can only stop at my hse nd thn walk home la. Thts the nearest route homeeee. HAHAHHAS !
iiE lUrbBeS EuU WoRsXz -.-

Sch tmr , 2.4km run. Dnt mke up. Hais , Sch kills !
Stress alrdy okay , Amaths test f me tmr !

So ,
In order to relax, You must hav S-E-X. Wait nt yet finish , it`s Sleep early,Eat regularly,Xercise more (Coded frm ChanYannTing)
HEYHEY , WHAT ARE YOU THINKG OF? HEHEHS! TWIST !

Anyw , My life`s .....
What comes arnd , goes arnd. Accept it nd Move on.
But i knw , i`m stil hold'g on f good. Hello t O.O + =(
When wil it end , thts what i`ve no idea abt it? How abt 2years ? Dare me bcos I think i will continue wait'g.
But don`t evn think i will b happy abt it. But person like me , had alrdy g deep into it. So i knw i won`t let it g.
Sigh at most , i bear w al those brunt nd best t keep it t myself ! Had alrdy used t it ... somehow.

Terence showed me this clip. I think the last 45sec play is damn amazing.
I kept repeat'g it over nd over agn :D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0WzmQmz9Kdc
Lousy freethrows can kill the whole play ! So , better practise more :D

7april

2007-04-07T08:02:00.000-07:00

So , bcos of XiaoHei , i gt up at 6 tdy. I`m stil god damn shit exhausted but i slapped myself tht I mus wake up nd get ready t meet her at 8 -.- See how punctual ! But some Tallie was hell late ! Who ar (?!) waited f her t reach payalebar station nd thn train dwn t meet her. We met eachother at the last cabin :D wad a convenience way t meet uh ! Crap alot shit stuffs w her on the way t novena, it`s nice anyw [: Waited so pathetic long outside control station f Kim &Elaine ! So homeutd trng tdy! 4 newcomers :D Xiaohei , Kim , Elaine &Sohhwee`s fren , Celine :D Hellos , HEHEHES ! Oh trng tdy was pretty tough uh but 4 on 3 was Fun. Team up w Jessie , PiPi nd Weena. I don`t knw what on earth happened t us , but we only knw tht we got most of the shots in the basket! Hahahas , The Blueeeeeee Team :D nd I knw TanWeena`s small little secret ! Shhhh (:x)
HEHEHS ! 10 mins run after trng. Mke up til only 12 nd a half rnds ): THE DISTANCE IS PRETTY LONG !

Stayup , Bathed , Kfc-ed w Xiaohei , Tina , Ber (hahas , told you tht i`ll write your bigbig name ! ) & Cherie quickly! We are al so Funny tdy , Talked al Funnythings over nd Laugh like nobody business :D I`ll link you guys up la , don`t worry !

oh , nd Tdy/Tmr (?)`s Easter day i gues. So was walkg into novena square nd happened t see this men dressed up like a rabbit nd giving out small easter chocos.

My very First reaction was : ' EEEEYER O.O ZOMG ! '
Thn tht guy tot i was sayg ' EEEEEEYER SO CUTE -.- '
So i think he find me nice , so he walked up nd gave me 3 chocos :D haaaas , Funny pls.
But awwww , Happy Easter day uh ! I wna do some eggs f ppl. But so sad , too late cos I dont evn knw it`s Easter Day!

Trained back w XiaoHei. Damnit , the train was damn pack. So am in the rush nd we squeezed it in. we`re jst very near t the door. So I lean on it. Knw wad ? The door al the sudden open nd i jst fall back, but Thank god XiaoHei managed t pull me back. Okay , once`s enough. Damn scared alrdy , thn second time happened agn ! I FALL BACK but saved by XiaoHei agn ! Evryone was Stunned bcos i`m like some wonderwoman can lead on nothing behind me but stil fall back!

Emo train ride back t tamp after she drop off at aljunied. Over t tm t meet ger joey megan vivien &yinghui.So yar , anyhow strolled nd thn decided t g Ikea. PRETTY MUCH WNA GO BUT ENDED UP DIDN`T bcosssssssssssssssssssssssssss ,

We missed our stop. Oh we took bus 168. nd thers only one stop tht can get t Ikea nd after tht its gg into the Express way. So Thanks alot ! We droped off at some ulu place nd thn wnted t flag f cab. But don`t hav , so took the same bus which directly g al the way t woodland district ! And drop off , cabbed yinghui homed w a total of 18bucks ( peakhr , damnit ) ! And thn sent joey t hse w ger. Acc ger f her bus 21 nd waited f Dad&co t fetch me over f Korean BBQ nd thn Homed !

Hello t 1year 4months ! Bcos of this, my life continues t be this way. So crazy yet contradicting.
I gt into big cry T.T Nw i knw how hard t forget abt one thing thn knw abt it. I cldn`t get it rid of my mind.

6april

2007-04-06T08:55:00.000-07:00

Mke it fast bcos Mrchew rushg me t bed -.- So okay , trained dwn t meet BestFrenForevr at somerset. over t starbucks f Iced coffee latte agn. Hahas ! Thn over t taka f pepperlunch! Was bitch'g arnd w her al day long tdy[: BFF , i finally meet you after so long. MISS YOU LAH! Oh damnit , my poor phone spoilt agn but stil workg. SAD PLEASE ! Over t fareast , shop arnd nd thn wen off. Saw Dear Yinghui&co on the way t station. Oh thers this bloody taxi driver , was crossing the zebra crossing , he doesn`t evn wna care abt us nd other ppl crossing so he was driving in full speed nd evn horn us ! Fkg pls , i was so damn scare tht BFF wil kena hit uh ! Lucky i hold her back if nt..Choy !

Trained dwn t vivo aftertht :D nd evn accompany her t queue up f the donuts ! The queue is damn freakg long ! But worthwhile bcos it`s yummy! I swear the TopShop over ther is so much better thn the rest in Singapore !
Manzxz , thers so much other things t comment but shall jst cut it short.Vivo`s love lah !

Train back at 7. BFF drop dwn at tanah merah.Gt back t tamp nd pass Ahchew , her donuts nd thn wen t meet ger at inter. 65-ed dwn t jo`s hse nd wen slackg til 9plus nd thn homed.

Homeutd trng in the morng tmr. Xiaohei`s coming back. yay gna meet her first :D so happppppy !
Train hard uh ! Jiayous f the 10mins run tmr after trng.

Thank you f cheer'g me up uh people. OHOH NDND YOU THER ! you`re so weird to me. Whats wrong w you al the sudden. Why do you hav t be so. Sigh T.T

Oh Hello Love :D It`s the 6th april !
Goodnight earthlings!

5april

2007-04-05T10:02:00.000-07:00

It`s 1.03am right nw. Okay t mke it fast , i`m damn drop dead exhausted!

Okay i don`t feel like talkg abt this morng. gt t ger`s hse w Joey , kristie came along too. Thn afterwards in the afternoon they al gt t my hse. As usual , People come t my hse wil always be tht self service. Hahahhas :D KristIe off t meet her Dear nd Megan came joined in after nt long. Gt t tm f mac nd thn stroll arnd. Damnit , i gt disturbed by them okay. Pity me :( Haiyer , i don`t knw lah.

Al of them wen off at arnd 4plus first nd thn being an Emo-Self. Train-ed dwn t plazasing t kill time first. Pack Iced coffee latte nd chocolate Eclair at Starbucks nd people there are Friendly :D Train-ed dwn t novena f Homeutd trng at mha. And tdy trng was pretty alrgt jst tht the 2 person run-4 passes gt me damn confuse !
But tdy warmup lead by yuanyuan was veryvery Fun you see , back passes w cherie was Awesome :D GRINS !

Oh Fee has a angmoh speakg friend alrdy. Thers a newcomer tdy called kiki ( i think) , she`s pretty england speakg type nd yet she knw cheena too. But up til nw , i dont knw whether if she uds wad hav i been talkg abt in cheena so i decided t talk t her in england which wil b better. She`s funny bcos i talked t her in cheena she replied me in England -.-

Trng ended at 10pm. Manager surprisingly wen off straight after tht. Yay bcos tmr is goodfriday so we`re given the permission t stay up late nd ball. Bathed nd thn over t 7-11 f cupnoodles session w the rest. nd thn Emo train ride/bus ride home agn. I reached home at 12plus , so tired alrdy la.

so goodbye nd goodnight earthlings :D

ANDAND I SERIOUSLY LOVE EMO TRAIN RIDES ND EMO BUS RIDES T THE MAX ! no joke abt it bcos i think its so nice being alone nd think back abt the past f al i want w LOUD BLAST'G MUSIC!

Why sld i brood wen i knw i sldn`t hav t b like in the past since i`ve alrdy learnt t tke it easy the last time. Why nt bear w it like once agn since i knw it`s abt t happen soon.

ITS OKAY TWT !

O.o + =D > TWT -.- ( Chewjunquan said so. )

4april

2007-04-04T06:06:00.000-07:00

Hehehs :D Am bread eater !

Girlfriends !

We`re big shades lovers!

Those uglyboys ( :x)

Stare wad stare ._.

Double twist!

Mr rain , usher nd .... guaikia !

blackieeeee

>.<

Crazy insanes

Grab a plastic bag nd puke please ,Thanks :x

Dear msyeo !

3RD APRIL :

BIG FAKE LOOKG TOY

MY FAKE EYES !

2ND APRIL :

jiaolian`s smiley rubber ball.

nd me [:

4april

2007-04-04T04:55:00.000-07:00

Alrgts , tdy`s love but my moods are terrible ! Cldn`t get up tdy morng , wnted t drag myself up but lazy.Ended up i woke up at 11. Was suppose t meet msyeo& ugly boys (:x) at 1030am in school. Hehes , am sorry la alrgts ! Gt t school nd they had alrdy finished w the stuffs alrdy. So took msyeo`s ride dwn t tm nd had lunch tgr :D Gt cartons of 100plus nd box of energy bar f class nd thn off t the stadium alrdy. So it`s sports day cum inter-class people :D It was love ! Evryone in my class wen ultra high nd we`re the most bonded class i gues ( Can tell ) Camwhored alot w msyeo nd class [: AWWWWWW ~ So enjoy'g lah ! Gt second f captain ball , thts when my mood chng like ultra sad ! tho it`s jst a small event but seriously i wld wan t get first f the class. But well , good game janey&co. Oh , my class gt First f al inter-class events except f captain :( nd those running events are nt bad too :D

Heehees , gues wad? 3G`S SPORT CLASS OF THE YEAR :DDDDDDD Greatness people nd Thankyou class nd msyeo f this wonderful day!

we gt our faces painted like army people , so ._. HEHEHEHES!

ended at evening nd off t tm f dinner w Team nd thn rush home w sarah first.OH saw many familiar faces too. Emaths nd Amaths tests tmr. MYGOD , i`m so gna screw it badly. Am bloody stress nd i wna scream so badly ! :'(

Yinghui nd yiliang , STUDY HARD ND JIAYOUS ALRGTS !
Mrchew , am nt jealous bcos you`ve no sch tmr please. Hahahas wadevr !
nd t Team , sorry i knw my mood kinda emo. But am fine alrgts. Don`t worry nd sorry guys !

Sigh , i dont knw wad t d alrdy. I need a break !

3april

2007-04-03T06:51:00.000-07:00

Like what Mrchewjunquan said was jst pureluck tht i managed t wake him up tho he`s havg late sch tdy [:
Haaaas , sorry anyw.
So was wonder'g what do i hav t d this morng nd i forgot tht it`s actually tht i`ve t meet ger/joey f daily routine. But was alrdy in sch bcos i`m late nd plus they`re late too. I saw tallie molly w fren behind me nd his attitude t me is so weird. Damn him anyw !

so school is school nt much t talk abt it anyw. But some funny things tht done by me gt ppl so LaughOutLoud badly. Haaas, was ultra slpy during emaths. So i asked victoria t draw a pair of eyes f me nd also borrow pair of spec frm her. so i gt tht pair of eyes pasted on the spec nd wore it. Bcos i wna slp but stil it`s jst f laugh lah bcos i knw tht its so fake please.

ohoh , i swear i can tel MrImran likes our class. He`ve gt spilt personality lah. But tdy he`s so nice [:

After sch , over t library in school w Team nd juniors t hav fun. Haaas i`ve a best friend called Daqiang the cockroach !Juniors bought this fake big lookg cockroach frm TOY 'R' US nd i wen round scaring ppl w tht so fake look'g rubber toy! Haaas so Fun please nd it sort of bond us tgr wen hav fun nd al. How great [:

Spastic came over t my house after wen off. nd thn dwn t meet joey. had yoshinoya at Tm nd thn stroll arnd.
As usual , bus here nd ther. nd thn over t Ideal place w Spastic f mango snowshake nd homed alrdy!

Thers no sch tmr but sports day in the afternoon. Goodluck 3G [:

Sigh , wads wrong w me agn. I`m gg back t normal self like a fuckg emo asshole bloody fucktard. Like hell la , i dont mean t say myself in this bloody manner but i think am really very pissed off w myself f being like this agn. Like how i get so dwn nd do al those bloody foolish things.

Am Confuse alrdy. I don`t knw why i fall back anyw. Why on earth sld I? When i myself knw tht you`re jst gna treat me this way , which al gna depends on your mood as each day pass. Like ha , i`m happy thn Hello wen i`m nt thn Goodbye ! Like wdf ? I don`t wish t break dwn soon.

nd f you , i need t ask you this in order t clear my mind. I think am jst thinkg too much , it`s impossible anyw. But why i don`t feel it?

by crook or by hook (!?)
nd damn shag alrdy la ! Goodbye !

nd i wna talk t Ian yeo ( Ahyam) bcos i wna talk nonsense !

2april

2007-04-02T05:28:00.000-07:00

It`s the 3rd week of the Term nd t me sch is getting really on serious business as midyear is jst in 4weeks time. Tchers are giving tests on this week nd rushg tru al the chapters nd made us catch up w work , al this are like hell t me. I don`t knw how am i able t cope nd manage my time. This thing called STRESS infer into my life somehow. I feel so terrible infact it`s very contradicting bcos tht thers other personal stuffs tht gt me feel so too.

I need t help myself nd get rid of this bloody problem in order t carry on w a better life. righhtttt but How?
like me think slowly first , gawdddddd :[

Stall sellg during recess nd aftersch was pretty... nocomment. But first try was quite nt bad alrdy. nd i feel so disgust by it tho it`s my own class. Ice-creams served w bananas ! Haaas bananas are love [:

Ohoh , cldn`t believe tht my class won award on the Best bond'g among different races while twin'g w 3B.
Was stunned tho but three cheers , Class :D

trng at 3 tdy. cboys took the other half court. Weather was ultra hot but stil trng was pretty alrgt.
nd Hello , I lost touch. How disappoint'g ! I dont knw why but I knw it myself tht I aint perform'g good on court tdy. I need t get confidence back ! nd I think i was distracted bcos mind was nt there. What hell happened t me uh , I need an answer !

Weilong , Happy fourteen uh :D He gt bd bash by evryone after a terrible trng. I pity him :p bcos it`s jiaolian idea. Oh btw i saw a good pass frm him jst nw ! It was HOT please! Haaaas :D

nd please Meganyeoweiqi. Stop it ( yknw wad uh ) , I don`t wan you t ended up like me. I don`t wan t see you get Hurt so much. I bear the brunt al those happen'gs nd It`s alrdy enough.

nw , am getting back t how it used t be in the past. I don`t knw why but its so happen'g agn. Was really weird , I tell you. Contradicting please ! Oh , I jst realise tht i had nt evn sort out my feelgs since after thn. Like f so long alrdy nd I think i`ve nt evn fade it tho I haven`t been gg into it much nd I tot i alrdy had but actually nt at al.
It`s stil gg on nd I`m afraid i`ll get Hurt agn. Tell me why it gt t b like this nd why at this point of time ?

Sigh please mke it so over. I don`t wna hav tht kind of phobia alrdy.
Goodbye nd thts al.

1april

2007-04-01T05:05:00.000-07:00

was ultra hyper ytd night nd so i stayed up late in the night nd only g t bed early in the morng. slept up til 1 nd damnit , it`s my lil sister birthday. so the house is like chaos nd noisy w small kids arnd as she invited frens over f the party. manzxzx , so damn noisy i tel you. screamg here nd there ! cldn`t stand them -.-
ohoh , it`s april fool day people. nd people out ther gt tricked by me :D so fun please.
i bet al of them wna kill me so badly !

nd so , had been stayg at home al day long tdy. cos plainly nobody wans t g out t slack or ball.
how boreddddd! Mrchew`s sick so Takecare !

nD waS tOkKIng ttU GErLyNoNGROuTiNg In tHiis Way.
iie LurBeE EeU WoRXzZx XD
(wdf i`m digust by this typg way nd am laughg out loud ! )

wen blog hopping jst nw , nd i think it gone too far t comment so much on us frm some ahs plyers or someone tht came over t watch the game.
bball game`s supposingly t b an aggressive game. so i dont see thers anything wrong w us snatchg the ball nd playg doubleteam/backstab.

If i didnt see any of my own juniors blog'g abt the game sayg al those bad comments on you guys tho we lost. then why are you ahs plyers/people broodg over nd sayg al tht we`re jian or wadsoevr.
But since i`ve talk it out thn i shall nt talk much too. Face it plyers , This is jst a ball game.

anyw , xiaohei/cch jiayous f this upcoming game w raffles. i knw you guys can mke it tru yeah ! :D
ahhhh , shaggg other than tht , Bye!

31march

2007-03-31T10:27:00.000-07:00

31march

2007-03-31T09:27:00.000-07:00

gt up early in the morng t meet Team over at mac tdy. bus over t ahs after tht. was damn freakg early cos we hav nothing better t d. their bdiv was havg trng so sat ther nd see them train. damn their trng was like somuch slack thn ours. Megan , joey &I didn`t hav t play but t watch Team nd juniors play w their cdiv. was Table ref btw. anyw , good game Team nd juniors ! awesome alrgts , tho we lost by afew but the standard was ther. I bet there will be a higher chance so al the best f this upcoming season okay [: you guys did what you`re supposed. am contented alrdy. game ended arnd 1plus, evryone rushed back home t get chng after debrief. nd met al of them at inter at 3.30 tgr w ger along. trained dwn t marinasquare nd thn bought tickets f ' number 23 '. god , the person gt us al 11tickets tht numbered , seats 5-15. nd evryone took their own jersey number [: so cool please tho daph nd lena didn`t come.

over t LJS f dinner agn. evryone except me. wen t kfc nd packed it over :p hahhas ! camwhored alot after tht. elouis uh , please off your flash ! you`re mkg it obvious wen you`re tryg t tke candid shots uh.

shopped nd wen in alrdy. i`ve gt tht small ben& jerry`s. it`s so niceeeee please :D anyw , the show was kinda alrgt jst tht evrything link t number 23. oh well , no comments -.- i only knw tht i almost fall asleep , hehehes ! it aint horror please -.- so i didn`t get t scream.

clever twins ,were watchg nd listen'g t MP3 at the same time. wdh !
ended at 9. nd evryone kept countg t get 23. manzx , megan`s insane !

megan , twins nd rebecca wen off first nd left the rest of us t rafflecity. shops are closing so we`re bored. nd we gt t bugis instead. sarah had t left by thn. shops at bugis are closing too. so slack over at starbuck t hav a drink nd kill boredom. stayed up til 10.30 nd thn trained back t tamp alrdy. nd sent people back w ger nd cab back home alrdy.

oh , had been msg'g many people continuously tdy. my bill gna ...
nd I was god damn high esp in the night!
hahah , wad a bloody big monster. roarrrrrrrr :o
eeeeew~

30march

2007-03-30T08:38:00.000-07:00

a touch of godness hand. hahahs

SIR STAMFORD RAFFLES :D

LOSER !

Hellos [:

KAMPONG .

^^

Spastic partners.

OMFG , RETARD -.-

:pppppppppp

camwhored (!)

okayokay , nocomment.

Haaaas >.<

I`m nt big mouth-ed.

o.o

FEET OFF !

regine !

awwww ~

Fav pose!

14 (green )

Meganyeoweiqi!

Gerlynongrouting !

Tanweiting :p

AH DAWN >.<

Ahemzxzxz.

VANESSA Tan

AHCHEW &AHTAN

xiaohei.

30march

2007-03-30T08:05:00.000-07:00

Finally it`s friday! another weekdays past nd here comes the weekends [: awww , love manzx !
nd sch tdy f me was ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ ( !) cos , i`m ultra tired. But at least , i tried t pay attention. Edurance paid off , if nt i think i need t g t the sick bay cos i`m seriously gna drop dead soon.
Well nvrmind nd i kinda feel bad f roll'g my eyes at the tallie molly. Happened t saw him at canteen nd i`m sure he`ll b sayg me but was wrong. Hmm , i`m sorry i gues? But stil i think he tot i was unhappy cos i can tel by his look when he saw me.

Chemistry`s complicated yet love [: hahahas

team came over t my hse after sch ,ger too! Al of them are al so self service alrdy -.-
watch ' MVP qingren ' nd al of us wen emo wen the sad part come. Oh please !
Wen off t tm at 4. Camwhore w spastic partners at busstop nd the rest can`t stand us :D haha !
bang into Prettybitch on the way , so i he join in while waitg f jianliang nd adam.
had LJS nd yinghui told me she`s at foodcourt. so over t say Hello t her nd frens tgr w Weiqi nd Ger [:

(yinghui`s blog ) > wow , weiting you're brave,you're brave .hahha . and your hair don't look ' toot'cute what ,yaya .

Haas , are you kidding me , Gohyinghui :D my hair`s like ultra toot nd ofcos am brave uh. Tanweiting you see ! smirks.

anyway , evryone homed nd so joey ger &I acc da-sao-ye(weiqi) home nd thn over t 800plus t hav a drink. Up t the carpark f the wind awhile nd thn bused t inter nd sent joey al the way home at bedok before gg home w ger. we`re kind souls~

C`girls havg game w ahs tmr. AL the best uh :D you guys sld knw wad t d right ! Hehes , loves !

nd wdf , i`ve some 'big dont knw wad thing' at the side of my mouth nd people tot i had mouth piercing -.-
so ugly lookg nd i feel so pekchek lookg at it. Haiyer , sad please !

& so goodbye earthlings !

29march

2007-03-29T08:59:00.000-07:00

alrgt the second post . EDIT /

God , I jst gt home ( 12mm right nw )
anyway , was late f trng jst nw. the train ride was long (zZzZ) nd tht pretty guy I met is hot please :D
reached nd evryone was at the first floor (?) f some meetg f hubc. havg buffet but can only eat after trng. so evryone pack it up instead. Lol ! jiaolian didn`t come tdy so the china lady(yuanyuan?) frm dadui came over t train us agn like the other time. so tdy trng attitude frm us was quite a statisfaction f her cos the other time , she said we`re nt serious at al. so yeah , Improvement ! [:

nd tdy trng was so much better thn the other time tho was very tiring. But I like the defence esp , was awesome wen al of us do it tgr nd follow the direction nd move up dwn left right on court. It`s like so coordinated. well other than tht , trng tdy`s pretty alrgt.

had a bathe nd thn waited f the rest. evryone was running away f manager nd she evn followed us til station. one scary monster but i stil don`t get it why , well i`m fine w it anyw so i don`t giv a damn -.-
trained back w sohhwee kaisin minyi nd weena. weena drop off nd thn left us. minyi was the only one drop'g off at pasir ris so being kind souls , we train til the last stop w her nd trained back agn. Oh , she owe us milo [:

homed nd nw i`m really damn hell drop dead exhausted. I need t g t bed right nw. Like so badly ! goodnight earthlings nd damnit , my knee`s painful ]:

nd i bet i`m gna slp in class tmr agn. Think so ?

29march

2007-03-29T02:30:00.000-07:00

Megan Yeo Weiqi`s such a mafan. It`s supposingly t meet joey nd ger evry tues nd thurs on the dot f sch. but Megan tdy said she had alrdy reached at arnd o650hours. so no choice , i went dwn t meet her first. I swear she`s so loser , cos she`s scared of getting t sch late. Please the main point is t g t sch late la ( like right one the dot f late comers at o725hours) Late comers are cool please [: hahas !

nd wnted t disturb Chewjunquan up at arnd 5. but tht lucky guy wen t off silent wen ytd i said i`ll be flood'g his inbox. But being a nice person , i don`t dare t wake him up so early. So yeah , if you see this , mus be Thankful tht i`m so good uh :D He`s such a pig !

So surprisingly , I was attentive tdy. evn during MrsWee`s emaths. Oh , nd shuyu had been get'g me LaughOutLoud during emaths nd amaths w her Rain`s dance steps !( Rain`s so Hot please! ) Well , shuyu`s funny nd love [:

Thankgoodness , my parents don`t hav t see MsYeo f the poor results. I`ve gotten back the report card , other than tht , i`m oh so speechless by lookg at tht slip. I hate lookg at the slip w line(s) ! zZzZz -.-

anyway , I`m so sleepy alrdy. Homeutd trng ltr on at night. so goodbye nd only back at 11.

28march

2007-03-28T05:52:00.000-07:00

S E R I O U S L Y , i`m so sick of school alrdy. If life in sch goes on this way , I tel you i don`t evn feel like gg sch nd waste my freakg time. It`s like , tchers talkg abt bullshits stuffs during lessons , plus it aint abt studies. nd my tchers had been on MC nowadays nd a few periods are being wasted f us t play in the class. wait , i can evn slp tru out the whole day. i aint kidding abt it btw :/

so wads my main point ? :DDDDDDDDDDDDD

OFCOS , TDY DIDN`T WEN T SCH LAH.
i`ve reason f nt gg. so yeah ! nd yeah , it`s a clean little secret between IAN &I :D

ohoh , well no worries anyway cos mates told me tht tdy lessons are oh so slack cos they were playg tru out the last 4 periods cos Ms Tan was on MC. seeeee ,told you ! waste my time ! but Thank god , I wasn`t in sch cos , someone told me tht Mr Bernard came t scold class f being disorder nd being a Chair suppose t get those lecture by him , but poor Vice took over my place on getting scolded f nt do'g her job. So sorry but well nw you knw how difficult my life on being this position right nw. So yeah , please mke it a prb-free , class ]:

Okay tho didn`t wen t sch but i took this RISK t g back t sch f trng :p nd t camouflage in between team t prevent frm being seen by familar faces !

well anyway , waterdroplets were form so it rain alittle at the start. so , decided t g 840 f the shelter but Mrwong said the court was occupied nd the rim spoilt. so over t 813 INSTEAD. I swear I HATE THT COURT T THE MAX ND EXTREME. Those so-no-manner Ahbengzxzxz are so irritating t me. other thn tht , I shall say no more.

ain`t concentrating during trng i gues but stil I push myself t a limit.
c`girls havg game w ahs this sat. ohohohoh , guys i`ve confidence in you guys so dont disappoint me.
mke sure you guys mke it up f me yeah . wong doesn`t allow me t g on court cos I`m old. oh i`m only fifteen !
But I really d wna g nd tke up this challenge please.

oh nvrmind , ended nd thn homed w team. wnted t rush dwn t sbc t watch qianxi vs homeutd f women but last min chng my mind. night trng tmr , I think i had comit too much into trngs. what if , i have a sudden decrease in my results. I wonder how am i gna cope ]: But i wna improve on skills so badly. awwwww~

nd nw , I think i cant do much t help my frens out there tht are troubled w life. kinda feel tht i`m effing useless.
I`m sorry megan nd cheer up please. same goes t the rest tht are dwn but dont wna admit. you knw who you are lah ! I didnt say who uh , so yeah. grins !

goodbye earthlings :D

27march

2007-03-27T04:56:00.000-07:00

WAD A WASTE OF MY TIME , sld hav stayed at home tdy nd slp more. sch aint like sch tdy. lessons are al like ..... free periods. it`s like i slept tru out the whole row of periods please cos , either tchers talkg abt bullshits things which are al nt impt t studies or tchers are on MC. i regretted coming t sch , i might as well stay at home nd finish up my undone hws which i need t pass it up by tmr morng. nd nw , i have t rush tru getting evrything done asap ]: so stress please , i feel so shitty. panadols please !

tht tallie molly said , we`re kept seeing each other in sch. like who the hell wna see you uh -.- but stil i think your smile is so [:

gt home nd chng. dwn t inter t meet tiffany nd ger. saw krisite yeong nd diana dear too [: over t yoshinoya f lunch. yay , wen t buy ben & jerry`s at fairprice. back home tgr w them nd how suay. i forgot t bring my keys out nd nobody`s at home. i`m feelg so guilty nd shag cos i made them waited w me f like 1hr f my sister t get back home frm sch. by the time , my ben & jerry`s had alrdy melted. ohoh okay , i promised i`ll rmb t bring my keys out. i swear ! so sorry tiff nd ger.

ger left early , nd thn followed by tiff. sent her off nd i was goddamnit ps cos i didnt see sinheng at the bustop nd i was talkg abt some stupid bullshits. gues he overheard some ? OMGGGGGGG i`m feelg so paiseh alrdy la.
oh , had been seeing him nearby nowadays. so yeah... Hellos [:

alrgts , i`m so gna burn midnight tdy. i`m exhausted.
trng tmr , dnt mke up. arghhhhhh !

nd kinda feel tht you`re feelg alil bit down or perhaps you`r shag. so yeah cheer up , Takecare!
ohoh nd megan yeo weiqi , PLEASE CHEER UP ! rants out t me tmr if you wan. tke it easy uh.

well , i kinda SHAG TOO so yeah,goodbye earthlings.

26march

2007-03-26T03:55:00.000-07:00

met leney nd botak at hse downstairs tdy before head'g t sch. music was played alrdy ,evryone had alrdy wen dwn f morng assembly. thn al the sudden , it was pour'g fkg heavily. whoo , rainy day`s love nd i love the wind baby [:

class contact tdy , it`s monday duh. had class discussions w the rest. ain`t really happy w myself , kinda gues tht i`m hell effing useless in control'g the class tho they think i had done my job well but ..

haiyer main point , class is lack of discipline. lessons as per normal.

mrsum had left f re-service f 2weeks , mrsoong`s bro which also called mrsoong came over t tke over. damnit , both mr soong(s) looked alike please. ofcos they`re real blood brothers ! his lessons are quite alrgt jst tht his teach'g style kinda different frm mrsum. EVRYONE SEEMS T DONT UDS ANYTHING AT AL.
well , goodluck uh [:

okay other thn tht , i`ve nothing else t say alrdy. oh tht is , tdy pe lessons suck big tym. wait , since wen i love pe lessons , waste my time ! nd tht fkg botak( another guy )is crazy in his mind , attitude people out of no reason. like who the hell talkg to or knw him uh , he jst out of the sudden shout at you sayg al those fkg harsh wrd , who on earth is he anyw , think he`s the king or wadevr uh. such unreasonable person , jst scram away lah.

tdy mass assembly`s totally an inspirational one. school invited ppl over t talk abt those handicaps people but tho they`re disabled. but stil , they cld do quite a number of things like us , normal people. like sports , basketball , tennis nd etc. the movie clips almost gt me cryg. well , nw i knw how blessed we`re. nomatter wad , jst follow your heart nd not how people think abt you. push yourself t a limit nd thers wil be improvement.

oh thers this national sailor , tht represented s'pore last year on getting gold the last year in the asian games. none other thn , Joveen Tan [: don`t by look'g tht he`s so good in sailing infact he`s one of the disabled too.
be proud of him people nd i think evry single things he said , gt me think back nd reflect. well jst think tht , a guy tht can`t move by himself , tht gt the depend on himself nd push himself t endure w tough trngs.
oh , evryone cld raise both of their arms up straight nd only him tht cld only raise up t a certain height. see,
nd nw you knw how difficult life is.

oh didn`t i tel you , he`s so hot please. same as tht tallie molly :p

stayed back in sch w team nd watch inter-class soccer. whoo , once agn , 3g gt into finals :D
congrats zul & co.

help out w mrwong t train sec1s nd thn homed.
nw , i`ve gt tons of hw t be done. haiyer stress alrdy lah.

25march

2007-03-25T08:03:00.000-07:00

almost late tdy morng. met joreen at o830am thn over t tm. was early nd hungry so had a quick bite over at ya kun first. prettybitch came nxt , he`s sucha loser. he ate icecream w bread early in the morng. nd he`s so
gross please, i was offer'g him a slice of bread nd he ate only the sides nd pass it back t me. goodness ! msyeo nd eefan came nd thn wen over the nxt door f breakfast nd class discussions -cafecartel [:

over t starbucks t continue w the discussions nd thn had a ride back home frm msyeo. the rest came along t my hse t play too. al left at 1 nd thn cab dwn t station at 3. train dwn sbc t watch women/men league.

women`s -
homeutd vs tampeast
qianxi vs ubi kembangan
* bold are those winning teams.

OMG , I`M SO IN LOVE W THE KEMBANGAN NUMBER 12`s HOT 3POINT SHOTS ! nd qianxi number 7 [:

stayed over t watch homeutd vs ?? ( mens) w peizhen&co. was talkg t cherie tht the plyers in homeutd are al so strong nd we`re afraid tht they might fly nd fall on us cos we`re sitting at the front row. talked abt insurance sayg tht what if we kena this nd tht. nd yknw wad?
i dont knw if i`m suay or wadevr shit.

tht other team plyer wen t push homeutd plyer nd ended both team fought nd hitting each other. some evn kena push til the side whr i`m sittng. nd one of the men kena pushed nd fall onto me. Fuck , i kena hit on the head against the bench nd shoulder. bloody toot ! evryone was stunned tht i cried. hahahas , i dont knw if i`m cryg or wad cos i was laugh'g too ._. painful please , ya dont knw how heavy tht guy was nd how smelly he was too. haiyerrrr !

evrything was settled nd both team left w/o playg on. so al of us left too. wen off w cherie first while the rest off t eat. Thanks f wait'g f my train [: oh she lives at yewtee btw i gues. ya knw how far there is -.- god !

had dinner at ajisen at tm nd thn homed. met sinheng over at inter. he`s one cute nd funny guy please. our distance was like nt far at al. nd he msg-ed me t talk nd al. was takg the same bus nd drop'g off the same stop too cos he lived near me. okay lah , our conversation was very gay. but thn , he`s nice anyw [: oh he told me tht he`s ps t talk t me face t face. haha GAY pls !

whoooo , mom nd dad had left overseas nd only back on tues night. i`m freee tmr the whole night. SMIRKS !

megan yeo weiqi , please tke it easy. i uds how it feels. relax uh. cheer up [: i`m such a nt good person yea, you`re much better you see.

24march

2007-03-24T09:10:00.000-07:00

haiyer wad a bloody toot day. didnt wen f trng this morng , i`m god damn tired. really seriously exhausted. i cldn`t try t drag myself up but al i cld think was t continue slpg. nd my head was like spin'g. but i knw it isn`t a bad one t skip a day cos i had been attend'g almost arnd 4days of trngs alrdy. so let me hav a break please.

sigh , i cld feel tht one day i`ve gt t see a doctor soon. my knee had nt been do'g good nowadays.

gt up at 12 nd happened t knw tht uncle simon nd nephews are al at my hse. Tanweimin had gt herself a new desktop too. eeyer !
i`ve gt cute nephews [: one of them looks like some japanese boy. god so cute lah , forgotten t tke his picture. damnit !

wen out at 3 , wnted t hav a hair treatment but idea was crossed out. supposed t b gg out f movie w spastic , joey nd yannting i gues. but ended up god damn toot tht al told me the plan was crossed out too. so i`ve nowhr t g , nobody t jio.
so being an emo-self , wen t tm t shop arnd instead. walked here , there , up , dwn , left , right like agn nd agn. cldn`t mke up mind , so i gt myself a tee at RSH. oh , I saw cute eyecandies over at xcraft nd urbanconcept :p

Adam called nd jio-ed me over t safra f pool w him nd prettybitch. so i wen over at 6plus. they`ve book the table but we waited like damn freakg long. more thn an hr i gues. team up w prettybitch against Adam. nd we lost t him 4times , hehes we`re so lousy can ._. but stil we won once (thts alrdy great enough)
damn you, prettybitch`ve gt no money t pay. so my share was pretty a big amt among the total. cos Adam was left w 5bucks.

wen off t primemart w Adam nd we walked frm safra al the way t there. acc him t buy food nd thn sent me off t bustop. Thank lah :D nd nw you stil owe me a big one !
bus t arleney`s hse nd acc her over t find bren at 7-11 near sch. both took their lil sisters out. regina`s cutiepie [: slacked nd thn homed at 10plus

oh , nw i`ve gt evything mixed up. i dont knw why but i cld feel tht it`s so wrong this time rnd. tel me a reason why issit back ? if it`s back at tht point of time the last time , evrything won`t happen this way but right nw , it`s happen'g at the wrong time. i dont wna hav false hopes agn , dont mke me fall agn. I had been thinkg back recently whenevr I`m being an emo-self. matter of fact tht , i wna knw why issit so?

23march

2007-03-23T07:32:00.000-07:00

okay damn , i was damn tired this morng. evrything i d was so slow like tortise. gt t sch , feelg tht i`m gna faint any moment. so right after i settle dwn in class , i jst wen drop dead lying on the table slpg. evryone tot i`m hav some pms or wadsoevr ._. so nobody wna disturb me. evn tchers dont dare t disturb me too , cos dear mates told them tht i was sick. but stil , i stil manage t wake up nd listen thn wen drop right after each nd evry of their lessons.

but the funny thing was , i gt so damn energetic right after sch. cos it`s inter class f captain ball baby [:
nd so quickly gather al those plyers in my class tht suppose t b playg nd god damnit , we`ve nt enough plyers. so prettybitch(yong) joined in. first game was w 3A nd we won. well , nice game people nd yes , mates you guys are powerrrrrr~ msyeo too , oh forgot t tel you guys , she joined in too [:

had a great fight w 3E after tht , was quite alrgt. but the tough thing was cos 3E had a volleyballer tht jump damn freakg high please. he was standg right in front of our catcher nd intercept'g evry ball. hahas , so prettybitch& I rocks their socks. WE FAKE , WE UNDERARM , WE PLAYED PASSING. hell , goddamnit funny [: nd evryone was laughg out loud i gues ! we ended the game w a victory back. whoooo ,we`re in f the finals w 3D alrdy. but sad t say , we might hav t sub other plyers in during finals cos quite a number had track events.

awwww , wad t d? confuse alrdy lah ]: wel shall see how thn!
had trng right after evrything ends. tdy was slack. did nth much but defence runs
one- three- one rocks ! ended at 5.30 sharp cos mrwong promised us t dismiss us early.

oh nd we gt 5 or 6 balls stuck up on the net jst nw , how cool is tht. i swear it`s real. show you the pic some day ltr. evryone in sch was al lookg at us gettg the ball stuck up there. it`s like people frm volleyball court / soccer field /pathway /canteen /basketball court. the scene is like omfg ._.

well , luckily al of us wen off at the right time cos it was pour'g heavily aftertht. gt home nd waited f ger t show up at my hse at 7. we`re like havg party session. she used lap , i used comp. thn on the radio like we`re as if in the kbox. hehes

so thers homeutd trng tmr morng. god i had like 4 trngs f this week alrdy. i`m exhausted.
save me please!

nd Why issit so happen'g agn. Tel me tht evrything is so wrong right nw. i find it really wrong please like. since when did it starts. bet thers sth gg on the wrong time. god , What t d ? ]: Tels me i`m jst only daydream'g luh ,slap me tight.

22march

2007-03-22T08:29:00.000-07:00

GOD DAMN FUCK UH. WADS WRONG W YOU THESE FUCKG SPAMMERS. SINCE WEN DID I EVN SAY ANY FUCK THING ABT YOU FUCKG GUYS. STOP CAN ! CB , SPAM F WAD? HUMJI , WU JI LAI . WAN T SAY , WRITE REAL NAME IN. DONT SAY , YOU`RE SOMEONE OR WHOEVR. I BET YOU`RE THE SAME OLD PERSON. OR WHOEVR. GET A FUCKG LIFE. SO WAD IF I`M FAT.I GT SAY YOU MEH? GT THN TEL ME STRIAGHT IN THE FACE LAH , THN SPAM ME F WAD? YOU AL THESE SPAMMERS GIV ME ONE FUCKG REASON LA. DONT TEL ME IS T TEACH ME A LESSON OR WADEVR BULLSHIT. COS MY LIFE AINT YOUR FUCKG BUSINESS AT AL. CARE SO MUCH F WAD. I GT COMMENT ON ANYONE MEH? BO TAI BO JI COMMENT ON ME? WAH , I THINK THE REAL LOSER IS YOU GUYS ALRGTS. C`MON WHICH YEAR ALRDY. SPAM'G IS S OUTDATED PLEASE. PPL NW, TALK FACE T FACE , YOU AL DOWN THT , BEHIND THE COMP , HIDING YOUR FUCKG FACE , SPAM'G PPL BLOG ND SAY AL BULLSHIT STUFFS. WAH I THINK OTHER PEOPLE THINK YOU GUYS ARE THE REAL FUCKG FAT LOSERS THN. TKE THE DARE , WRITE YOUR REAL NAME IN LAR . SEE I KNW YOU ANOT? IF YOU ARE ONE FUCKG PERSON THT I DONT EVN KNW YOU , THN I TEL YOU. YOU GUYS ARE LOSERS.

22march

2007-03-22T01:52:00.000-07:00

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awww god damn , i`m super drop dead exhausted right nw.
homeutd trng at night jst nw. Thanks f the ride back , mg`s dad [: nd yea if nt i wil be havg an emo train ride back nd only reach tamp at 11+ i gues.

sch tmr , inter-class aftersch , trng after tht. wahhhhhhhh! i wna tke a day break please , if nt i had been pretty busy w al of things nwadays. esp TRNGS !

sigh , Whats tht f? al the sudden another happen'g. haiyer , i`m damn mixed up alrdy. feelg`s back , Fuck. but i jst said Hello t b...
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TDY `S SUCH A BORING DAY.i`ve nth else t say i gues.
wad a miracle.

nd please whoever you are , jst get a life. i didn`t evn say any single thing t you or whoevr. whats the prb of comment'g on me so much. gt things t say , face t face say lah. don`t bo tai bo ji , comment so much behind me or tag me sayg i`m wadwadwad. don`t say i no reason t scold ppl , it`s who , who started al this first? Loser. since nobody believes me or perhaps doubt me. thn i`ve nth better t say. who sld i evn believe ? since wen i had this kind of bad impression t people out there? haiyer fuck it lah , i sld fuck off thn.

21March

2007-03-21T05:22:00.000-07:00

okay , this is so omg [: cos mom nd dad gt me a new laptop ytd. Thanks yeah , loves ! alrgts , i`m so happy tht this laptop is superduperultra nice t use.
okay la , shal nt talk abt it.

so , sch`s pretty alrgt i gues. but don`t knw why this Term , i had been pretty tired during lessons nowadays. slap me in the face please, i need t pay attention! ._. oh alrgts , gt so damn pissed off during recess. mr sum came t look f me nd joreen. he said we`re in mrs wee`s namelist. SEE TOLD YA , she doesn`t like our attitudes at al , so wna kick us out of her emaths class. but mrsum saved us. omg , really Thankful f tht , but thn tht old witch ar, i`ve nth else t say uh. damn pissed off w her. Wadevr uh!

nd mr sim cameby t talk it out w me too. somehow , feel tht the activity he set up f me nd rest are jst wasting my hell time. i don`t feel like gg at al. so wads wrong stayg in class during recess?

rush out of class after sch , suppose t stay back f the re-test f vocab. but msyeo forgot abt it. so wen t get my emaths re-test done instead. watched sec2s inter-class basketball. mostly are al teamates nd cboys frm different classes playg w each others. had trng at 4 , tdy was super ultra slack. played 5 on 5 nd the runs was pretty good tdy. was pourg damn heavily halfway , so trng ended early. so evryone homed. was pour'g damn heavily , tht i chng my mind of gg bas t watch homeutd vs qianxi. sorry uh ber , i said i`ll b coming ended homed. i`ll b ther f this sun`s match uh. hehes [:

ohoh , Chanyannting. Cheerup alrdy , no more emo. don`t let emo over take you during on court. you`re great on court alrdy. but can tel ya nowadays had been like restless on court. so yeah , buck up okay. you`re one impt plyer t the Team nd t mrwong. so perform like how you had been put in 120% on court. tho you ain`t concentrating good tdy , but you had play a part on defence. Thanks f helpg out nd al , nd yes Thanks f tellg me my mistakes too [: YOU`RE LOVE , BABE !

nd ofcos t the rest of the Team , up til nw. i had nvr regret been'g a teamate w you guys. well , can see tht in the past when we first started off , we`re damn hell lousy in evrything. but nw , i think we had become a better Team. stronger infact. efforts had paid off nd i gues mrwong had much more confidence in us. so sec2s , don`t disappoint him f this upcoming season. aim high , hav prides girls [: ohbtw , mrwong`s debrief was so mkg sense t me. well ofcos he`s talkg abt studies , basketball nd bgr stuffs uh. so yeah , we sld control ourselves t get over w things tht we sldn`t hold on f long. so yeah girls always suffer more thn boys. nd i think i`ve suffered enough.

well gues i sldn`t hav g nd care much. you don`t need me there anyw. Why sld i evn tke tht initiative? haiyer , forget it lah. I don`t knw how t get you feel better. I FEEL LIKE FUCKG OFF.

sch in the morng , mke up in the afternoon , homeutd trng in the night.
god , sld i g or nt?

20March

2007-03-20T05:57:00.001-07:00

it`s only second day of Termtwo. nd i had had enough of you , mrs wee. Stop being so unreasonable towards me nd you`re so mean btw. like eh , please uh. I had been tryg t chng f a better student tht willing t pay attention during your class. nd tdy i had been control'g myself t listen & i evn sat at the front quietly by myself. i`ve gt evrything taken note. was al the sudden feel'g nt good , so i rested f alittle while. ended up , i gt insulted by those harsh words. wad you mean by tht uh , g ahead nd drop me la. I no longer can stand your fuckg unreasonable attitude towards me nd the class. you said tht i didn`t wna listen t your class thn get out. if sick thn g dwn sick bay nd sleep al i want. like Fuck ? you always see the bad side of me , when will you evn take notice of my good side ? like in your eyes , i`m disrespectful. Stop being so mean , jst Stup the fuck up.

haiyer , i`ve no mood t talk abt it. stayed back after sch t help out f the inter-class basketball. off t tm w spastic parts & joey. gt my adidas bag , like finally & thn sent megan home before i off t home too.

i`ve so much work t catch up this Term nd i need t get it done asap.
god , i realise this year had been a tough one f me. nd also quite a busy life.
i`ve gt t attend sch in the morng , trng in the afternoon , stay back f dnt , homeutd trng at night nd weekend.
out w frens f de-stress. theres so much things , so little time. i need t manage my time alrdy. like seriously ]:

oh nd i don`t knw wads wrong w me nowadays. I flashback t the past somehow. whenevr i gt t those places tht i spent w there. nd those things tht did tgr. tho i said i had get over w it but sometimes i cld feel tht my feelgs are stil there. i`ll stil feel upset over those i sldn`t feel at al. nd i cld see you nd others had always been so happy tgr. tht mke me think why i cldn`t bring such happiness t you too. perhaps i`m jst so nt good at it t get you feel tht i`m actually the one tht wna mke you feel good evrytym. I envy them bcos they can mke you happy. see , how effing useles am i the last time. well , i kept thinkg of those happen'gs nd up til knw i don`t knw Why issit like tht right nw. nd i don`t knw if you stil care.

well , i`ve get over it nd move on.
ohoh , mom nd dad gt me a new lap [: Thanks nd love !

19march

2007-03-19T06:37:00.000-07:00

is today counted as monday blue? hmm shall see thn.

first day of Termtwo. gawd , it`s alrgts but kinda bored tho. nd i think frm now on , i don`t feel like gg t sch tht early f the sake of sitting in the class nd stare at blank space or talk arnd. so i shall slp alittle bit longer nd stay up til the time is up like arnd o715hours? cos sch`s like jst bside my hse , so it`ll b only a 5minute walk uh.
consider late wil start on at o725hours. so yeah , why nt i`ll love t b in sch jst in time nd walk into sch w people like some DAOSAOYE! [:

hahas okay This is Lame! so , back t sch`s so fun cos thers my oh-so-irritating deskmate , JonathanFanEnJie
he nw can claim tht his fringe was so much longer thn me alrdy. i wen t cut it away nd it`s way too short right nw. uh , this is so ugly-lookg ]: sad alrdy la , hair p l e a s e grow faster !

oh , gt back some of mypapers f commontests. nd yeah can say i`m so damn disappointed w those average scores of mine. it`s so badly done nd nw i can d nth but t work harder the nxt tym rnd ! righttttt [:
gues i was so distracted by wad had been happen'g at tht point of time. tht gt me cldn`t concentrate at al , but nw i think i shal nt talk abt it nd nt t stress myself up so much. GO ND D WELL F MIDYEAR , Tanweiting [:
nd ofcos sorry tchers f disappoint'g you guys. i didn`t d well infact i didn`t evn put in effort. gues i was too
much t put my personal feelgs in while i`m suppose t concentrate on studies ! sigh , i regretted somehow...

okay , anyway wen t find kristie after sch tdy. accompany her t shop & we had seoulgarden f lunch. MANXZXZ , i`m so full can. we`re like meat eater ._. nd she kept pushg al those food tht she cldn`t finish t me nd i had t stuff al them in. cos was told nt t waste food you see. i swear , i don`t wna come w her the nxt tym rnd. cos she was afraid of bbq'g those food nd i had bcame her chef or wadevr , had t serve her this nd tht.

oh chiuwen& her two other frens i gues were there too nd we sat next t them. didn`t i mention , chiuwen has bigbig appetite ! she ate like non-stop , i was stunned ! haha , she`s like tht skinny only please [:

drag myself out of there cos i cldn`t move. i`m hell full. off t 800plus t meet ahbao & diana dear. waited f ger t end her sch. bus dwn t inter w ger. took 293 cos we tot weiqi&co were in the bus tht we`re told. but ended up , they`re in the nxt bus.

gawd la , we cldn`t get dwn cos it`s like damn pack nd stupid idiotic people kept coming up the bus , wen i alrdy said ' sorry , excuse me let us get dwn first '
dont knw they deaf or wad , they wen up the bus nd evryone moved in. nd i had no choice t squeeze out of my way. i almost hurt my ankle cos i somehow twisted alittle wen i was dwn the steps. damn you people !

nd my rant'gs wen on nd on on the nxt bus whrby i told them which gt them laugh out loud ._.
haiyerrrr , horrible la please. so weiqi gt dwn nd thn we took the bus directly back t 400plus. gt dwn at 492 t meet up w yannting first thn over t ideal place t meet up w sarah&juniors. was dead exhausted so , they walked me home [: hahahs Thanks uh people. love you guys manymany !

nd ofcos finally someone uds how it feels wen i was gg tru these such happen'gs at tht point of time. nd she`s the only person tht really uds it clearly tht al the things she said mke sense tho. none other thn , Tanghuijia [:
alrgts , i love her uh cos she loves me too nd yes , we`ve fun talkg abt bears ! YKNW WAD UH. hehehs
Takecare , i`ll lend you my pair of wings. lets escape frm tht big bear ! smirks :p

t weiqi&co ( yknw who you guys are ) , Thanks f always being ther f me. i knw you guys care nd worried but yea i`m do'g good alrdy. sorry uh ]:

SO YEA , I love people out there !

18march

2007-03-18T06:34:00.000-07:00

ytd night was hell nd yes people , please get a life. ( EH THIS NT SCOLDG HOR , DON`T ANYHOW POINT THINGS AT ME W/O REASON )

so wdh , i don`t knw wads wrong tht had such people t say such a thing at me. gone too far & they doubt me. wdf ? ah wdevr la , i don`t wna giv damn abt it. infact why sld i ? cos i believe i ain`t such a person t so boliao point things at others. when i myself knws tht my life had been always good nowadays & i`m satisfied tht i`m better off without those troubles. so , Stop being so utterly sensitive.

ah tot i said wadevr , okay Wadevr! nd so yeah tiffany , terence & gerlyn came t my hse this afternoon.
watch Themaid ._. nd we ate alot of fruits ! HAHAS
gt off t 450 t ball at 4. was late you see. brother terence & junquan were there alrdy. so sorry people !
quek came nd ball as usual. manxzxz today was damn horrible terrible vegetable luh ! gt trip or issit i accidentally tht i fell nd lay flat on the grnd. hahas , stupid lookg luh ! but i`m alrgts w tht la.
okay , this is nt the bottomline.
ball w shirong&co. like he`s such a toot ! use tht tall height of his t play ball & i gt fooled like nobody business. man , LOSER LA , TALLIE ! hahahahs nd tht botak friend of his gt his leg accidentally kick my left shoulder. ther goes , my old injury`s back t hurt agn. but this time was terrible. i cldn`t fixed it back. ( hahahs didn`t i mention , i can fixed my old injury back t the place cos it`s always dislocated while ball'g ! ) wnted t scream badly , but thn paiseh uh , so i tried t fixed it back & Thankgod , it wen back t normal. tht pain`s like , painful please ]: nd idiot shirong kept disiao'g me tdy ! wads wrong w you la , please don`t misuds btw!

dinner out w quek&co. saw rabbit & janey. Thanks ar rabbit , she jst straight away punch hard on my left shoulder ._. gt back home w ger arnd 8plus.

sch`s reopen'g tmr. nd i think i`m gna hav such a wonderful start. manxz , I hate getting up so early in the morng ! haiyer , goodluck people !

dear shoulder/computer , please stop giving me attitude.Thankyou [:
& i saw tht blueblue thingy jst nw. god i flashback somehow.

17march

2007-03-17T08:12:00.000-07:00

wads wrong , you tel me , since wen i evr said i was pointg things at someone else.
i was al along sayg myself please ,

DIDN`T YOU GUYS SEE A ' SHUTTHEFUCKUP , TANWEITING '
aint tht obvious , sayg tht i was al along talkg abt myself.
INFACT , i was putting blames on myself.
so wads wrong w you guys.

i slit myself , you al happy?

17MARCH

2007-03-17T04:52:00.000-07:00

i`m paranoid , really damn god abt it okay. like haiyer , don`t knw lah. shut the fuck up , Tanweiting.
tel me why? i yet t knw why i gt treated this way. & nw , tht so miss wdv gt evrything she wnted.
& had been so wdv tellg it out and showg me tht she`s so muchmuch better. tht gt me feel tht , i had been so stupid t hold on tht other time.

haiyer , why am i stil talkg abt this , tot i`ve fade it away. but someone somehow gt me thinkg jst bcos she`s feelg the same way as me too.
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homeutd trng tdy. didn`t train but sat ther & watch the rest. cos i`ve gt big fat swollen finger. evryone had been callg me spongebob. hahas funny ._. oh i jst realised thers alot of TAN(s). TANWEITING , TANKAISIN , TANSOHHWEE , TANWEENA...anymore? :D

off t cityhall w spastic f haircut. nd DANG , i`m super upset abt it , cos i`ve ultra toot hairstyle nw. i`ve a very bad hair day uh ]: cries ! my fringe tht is like this long <--------------------> bcame this long <----------> eh hell la , i don`t dare t face people alrdy la , cos i think i really look so damn toot ! i swear , but people told me it`s cute , like HAHA Thanks uh ._. wadevr p l e a s e !

nd spastic is really stupid. she lead me t the train tht g t boonlay. we waited ther f long and i found the area kinda weird cos we wna head back t tamp. so i looked at the sign ' BOONLAY ---> ' wdh la , Thankgod i realised the stupid mistake , if nt we had alrdy take the wrong train uh !

back t tm t check out the converse 3on3 , boring la. nth special lah. megan yeo weiqi & joey came t find us. they came jst t check out my toot hairstyle. LIKE EH , Thanks too ! i wna cry alrdy la ]:
was slpy , so gt home after strollg. spastic wen t rot alone instead. sorry uh !

16MARCH

2007-03-15T22:31:00.000-07:00

EDIT/
okay , like HAHA ._. parents gt home & they had been quite bad tempered nowadays. so yeah didn`t wna stay at home and mke them feel evn more bad cos i thinkg talkg t them , i`ll ended up in the wrong. so yeah , t escape frm those nags. i jio-ed ger out t ball in the night.
nd so , didn`t knw we`re so steady. say wna ball nw , confirm will ball :D hahas
ball-ed til 9plus w people. prettybitch & weewee happened came along too.

oh this suck , cos my index finger went swollen & it`s like out of shape? ZOMG :/ freaky la. Thanks t my itchy fingers t g nd steal tht ball.

thers stil homeutd trng tmr , howhowhowww. i`m stil very exhausted uh.
haircut after trng & thers converse 3on3 at tm open plaza frm 9-5pm.
anyone wna g check it out? sms/call t 91514528 [:
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like dang ! i`m hell tired tdy. this morng i woke up late and therefore i`m late t meet ahchew. sorry uh , was really tired tht i forgot i`m suppose t meet you f the al star thingy. so i`m like chiong'g here & there nd evn tke the faster bus t g meet her ended up she said i was mafan tdy. paiseh la , chew !

saw terence&co. at the platform( don`t think they saw us ) so yea , gt up the train & gues wad. prettybitch(yong) was in the same train too nd he was walkg over t the other side t meet them i gues. and hahahhaas , ahchew &I were in the middle , so prettybitch i mke him t stay w us :/ but i regretted , cos he`s noisy la. oh did i mention , he`s very whiney ( spelled) uh , cos ter&co gt dwn at paya lebar which normally he gets dwn there too. but me & ahchew normally get dwn at aljunied(which both routes can always reach sbc uh.) the train was crowded nd i didn`t get dwn at paya lebar which he can`t evn get out too. SO HE SAID ' I`VE CHNG ! ' ( he had been sayg this line f long ) nd he said tht our route t sbc is very long so we said : ' see ter&co reach ther faster or us lo ' ended up , evrybody reached almost the same timing. see , prettybitch is sucha loser la. hahas :p

wel anyw , watch eastzone played nd mrtan finally take over f the coachg. manzxzx , it`s so much better alrdy you see. and both girls/boys gt 3rd !

gt off after everything ends nd i wen straight back home F THE SAKE OF THE WONDERFUL BED. COS I`M FEELG NT GOOD AT AL. sucky la , i`m havg noseblock. big time headache nd i kinda hurt my old injury at the left shoulder during ytd match. nd i need the bed f a long nice sleep so badly. cos i`m exhausted please.

2 more days til sch reopen. i don`t knw how am i gna survive tru the nxt Term.
i`m stil nt gg t d emaths cos emaths kills ! BUT THE MATTER OF FACT THT I`VE T RE-DO EVRYTHING MRS WEE GAVE US F HOMEWORKS ! eh , like wdh it`s alot please. haiyerrrr !

homeutd`s trng tmr morng . someone told me thers converse 3on3 somewhr. oh man , i wna g see uh ! hair cut tmr , anyone? hahahahs ,iyah jst msg/call me uh. blahs !

oh i saw you & sorry i don`t knw how t face you.

16march

2007-03-15T10:08:00.000-07:00

GAWDDDDDZXZXZ ._. nd so , i`m so hell dead beat exhausted right nw. my eyes are like red blood , i`m havg a noseblock , my head`s hurtg nd i`m yawng endlessly. HAHAHAHAS :D crap luh~

so this morng was meetg ahchew over at inter. saw wq & jocelyn too [: HELLOS ! nd yes trained dwn t aljunied(BAS) t watch alstars. oh didn`t i mention , i was in the train surrounded by gays (bangalahs) like Thanks , they freak me out and they stink ahchew&I t the extreme max. like wdh ? imagine , a pair of gays tht is bangalahs hold'g each other hands and talk in a sweet voice and giving out electric while lookg at each other. wah , i almost vomit cos they`re hairy mary(s). HAHAHAHHAHS :DDDD

well anyw , eastzone team had quite a big number of plyers uh and ofcos wen ther t see other good plyers out there in the world. well , nth much t talk abt it but yea goodluck t the east alrgt ! gg over agn tmr in the morng w ahchew. i hate morng train ride cos it`s morng peak hr ._.

nd wad the bloody toot ? prettybitch told me sayg tht someone wans....... ohokay. stunned yet wadevr :o

wen off at 12+ nd rushed back t sch f friendly w bedok north. sec 1s are awesome , same goes t the sec 2s too. well although we lost t them but the true winner is us alrgts. it`s really a good game i gues. keep up t good defence team :D oh megan & joey don`t worry yea. although we`re sec3s & mrwong don`t really put us dwn due the upcoming season f cdiv( you knw) but yea , train hard f nxt year !

arhhhh , sucky la. i`ve gt sunburn why didn`t anyother kena . why always me tht gt red faceeeeeeeeeee.
urghhhh , t hell w the hot weather ( evrytym) ended at 5+ rushed dwn t inter w twins/mg. had a quick meal at mac and trained dwn t novena f homeutd`s trng. oh can say tdy trng was alittle bit funny yet sucky. don`t knw wads w tht cheena jiaolian but yeah stil i respect her f ... i don`t knw. LOLS :/

i can say , i`m gna put in more than wad i`m expect on court. nothing else , but basketball.
(see , people must be very gald tht i`m finally letting g of the past and move on. )
oh , haiyer the sight of you. gt me feeel so er .... but yea seriously havg phobia. i`m nt toy , idiot?

okay , gym-ed nd had a bathe over ther. dinner w the mates at kfc nd thn trained back t eastside w kaisin sohwee jiaxin weena & onemore - shal name her ' shihui lookalike ' f the time being ( forgot her name , sosorry :/ ) hahas , they`re funny i swear and nice ofcos :D ohoh , ' shihui lookalike ' told me / sohwee / kaisin ghost storys and al la. and we`re so afraid of gg home okay. Thanks t sohwee too( she & her lift.) and i managed t rush up home after getting out of the lift. did i mention , i reached home at 12+ after al those long trainride and bus ride. tht`s why i`m so tiredddddddddd.

OKAY LA, night earthlings and
yes BFF gt me a letter. so nice of her ! & TALLEST gt me greentea always.
TEEHEEHEE , green tea t me is loveeeee [:

14march

2007-03-14T07:06:00.000-07:00

so yeaaaaa , comp had been dwn recently. like hell la , spoilt at this point of time. can die f me okayyyyy!
but don`t knw why tdy , the comp is like behaving good uh , allow me t come and blog and stuffs. hahahs , miracle okay perhaps the comp heard tht my mum wna buy new comp t replace it , so it cldnt bear t leave me , thts why its behaving good if nt , this comp evryday attitude uh ! hahahahas , MANXZXZ i`m superduperultra high and insane since after i told myself tht i`m gg t b happy kid. and so yea , ther you g... a new Tanweiting ! tht wnted t be happy ended stil kena scolded f being so high evryday. wads wrong w you guys okay... i sad , you guys scolded me . i happy , you guys said i insane ._. nonsense p l e a s e !

anyw , didn`t blog f a day(ytd) and i`m blog'g evrything in since the comp is behaving good [:
okay , so tryg t squeeze my braincells and get evrything type in as much as i cld rmb !
er ohoh , was suppose t ball w quek&co in the afternoon. ended up , it rained like nobody business at arnd 2plus. was at ger`s hse bythn and we`re like haiyer ! god is funny okay , rain wen we`re gna ball and it doesn`t rain wen we`re nt gna ball. i spelled it as COINCIDENCE please. so plan was cancelled and ended up in tm instead w ger. we`re like slackers. gt dwn t 840 at arnd evening t ball alittle. yay, I`M SO HAPPY COS MY TOUCH IS FINALLY BACK [: LOVELOVES !

-mke evry shot , a power shot !

awwwww (: and jonathan came dwn t ball w us too.

bus-ed back home after a game. and thn back over t ger`s hse at 8 t 10pm f the comp! haha i`ve booked it alrdy :p

so tdy , thers trng at 840 at 0830hrs. gt dwn t inter first and bang into tallest/yiying/shurui at mac! they`re head'g over t 840 t ball too. so yeah , trng was super alrgt la. and sorry uh , i gt the fastbreak run mixed up !

well , jiayous uh f tmr friendly w bnss [:

and so , basketball t me nw , is like mylife alrdy. prbs of the past had alrdy fade i gues and i think i feel so much better , ballg w 120% w/o any personal feelgs on court . in fact , it`s jst the start. i`m playg smart ball !

wel anyw , gt t ahbao`s hse f a bathe and thn back t sch f dnt mke up at o130 t o530 hrs jst nw. nd it`s super tiring la ]: i wnaaaaa slp alrdy. so yea , byebyeeeee earthlings !

over t acc ahchew t watch alstars tmr morng , back over t sch f friendly in the noon and over t homeunited trng at night. awwwww , i`m sure gna be deat beat alrdy laaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ! but stil , it`s f the sake of bball . so yea i don`t mind uh [:

ohohohohoh , i rmb sth... didn`t i tel you . i had been havg this phobia since after i gt treated this way by people. and i`m so afraid of getting toy alrdy uh. so boys , don`t come near me , shooooooooo ! and i feel like cryg wen i actually feel tht my feelgs gt played by people like them. urgh , fuck it :/

12march

2007-03-12T14:05:00.000-07:00

tot i`m gna hav insomia due t the big cry the day before. but ended up i slpt up till 1plus ytd. well , gues i sld put it t an end and mke my final decision.

sososoooooooo , i`m giving up on my current life and moving on ! like a brand new start luh.
well really , sick of this. since evrything is continuing t b this way. i`ve nth else i can d , righttt. rights ! and yes so let it b , CJQ. i knw i`ve been giving you troubles. so i don`t wna bring more into your life yeah. jst wna hav a new start la , like brother/sister. i knw you had always treat me like one , jst tht my feelgs f you ain`t the same. but nw , yeah.
so yeap, i knw you hav a better someone there f you uh , so yeah good f you thn.

anyway , in the earlier part i said i woke up at 1 plus. can tel i`m indeed a pigggggggg.
okay drag myself up frm the bed f a quick bathe and thn dwn station t meet twins/mg at 2. trained dwn t pasir ris and thn bus t dwntown and yeah cab into aloha loyang ._. hahahas

IT`S HOMEUNITED CHALET .
and yeah i`ve get t knw those people better alrdy infact i gues i knw most of their names by nw.
helpg out and stuffs were fun too. luckily i didn`t kena the waterbombs but aim'g at manager was funny.

oh one of them called FAN JIELUN. hahas she has a coool name uh.
and yea stayed up til 10plus and jiaolian sent me t mrt tgr w peizhen.
geez , she lived at yiochukang p l e a s e . and a long emo train ride f her.

well okay la , thers trng this morng. but i didn`t wen f it. ended up i was at clinic(hospital actually). blahblah and thn trained back t tamp t meet up w spastic t tm. and i`m right over at pat`s hse nw.
so yea. THE END !
i knw this post is superduperultra long / random but yeah. Thanks f read'g

ohohohoh , I`M A HAPPPPPPY KID NW !
CODED FRM SPASTIC

11MARCH

2007-03-11T10:23:00.000-07:00

i don`t uds . i don`t evn knw wad t d. infact wad else can i d nw. pratically nothing actually.
since you had decided t b this way. thn i`ve nth else better t say. i knw wads gg on arnd you nowadays. i can tell. and seems tht you are much happier w/o me anyway. thn good f you.

i don`t wish t say out anymore. f bcos i decided t keep it t myself. wad f evn if i said it al out. you wldn`t uds how i feel behind between you guys. i slit , i cry. it aint gna b a concern t anyone. cos i`m happy slitting myself. so wad more you guys gna say abt it. g ahead and comment much. cos i`m feelg terrible since after. but who uds? none at al.

yes , i likes t mke myself suffer so much.
cldnt stand tht , i wen dwn t hav night run at 1am plus.
and breakdwn like no tmr.

11MARCH

2007-03-10T08:04:00.000-08:00

finally it`s Term 1 march holidays. and yes , i can seriously say tht my holiday won`t evn b like one. infact i`m hell busy w this(s) & tht(s) . haiyerrrr !

so this morng gt up and met up w twins/mg & mrwong at 0815hrs. trained dwn t novena f homeunited`s trng.
nd yes , i`m aching al over due t ytd`s trng. anyway , trng was pretty alrgt infact quite nice uh. the plyers ther are nice too [: (saw many familiar faces) nd ofcos manager Lee & the coaches. well , their trng was pretty different frm my own sch trng uh. but overal it`s much better and fun thn my own sch trng which is like totally torture la. hahahs ohoh the 4on4 full court is really fun uh ! :D debrief-ed and also evryone gets t eat fruits evry after trng. how cool`s tht :D apples & oranges are love!

didn`t i tel you , their bball court venue damn cool yea. it`s like somewhr inside the police headquarters sth one la ._.
oh yar , they`re havg chalet tmr on & newcomers are al invited t join in the fun :) soyep i`m so lookg forward.

after trng , cab-ed dwn t RARA`s hse at owen road uh. nd wen ther f a bath. hahahhas nd cab-ed dwn t town aftertht. swensen-ed and thn over t fareast/heeren/topshop&etc la. I`M SUPER ACHING AL OVER & i walked like old grandmother. cab-ed dwn t bugis in the evening. and we had a hard time flag'g f a taxi. evrywhr we g the taxis passed by are al hired. like hell fucked up w those drivers. ended up we walked a long ulu distance t the hotel and finally gt up a stupid taxi. how crap is tht , vry infact ._. starbuck-ed after reach'g. over t street & junction f shopping. oh i gt myself a yellow tee w spongebob face ! hahahhahhas cute la please :D
walked f long and settle dwn at ' tcc' f tandy peach soda & we`re camwhoring ! took neoprints & ALSO USED A STUPID IC PICTURE TAKING MACHINE SOMEWHR T TKE STUPID PICTURES. a great idea of rara anyway !
saw megan &co btw (: took a long emo bus ride bac t bedok inter & thn 28-ed home. i`m achingggggggg & i`m exhausted alrdy la.

well perhaps home-u gna b a part of mylife soon. and i`m so gna need t manage my time better. mon / wed is sch trng & thurs havg ref course in the morng , friendly in the afternoon , home-u trng at night. and plus dnt/emaths mke up over nxt week. tel me i `m gna drop dead soon over the holidays. god bless me thn ._.

and nw, you have your dearest t get your life better off w/o me. so wad f ?
such uds'g / caring thn me uh. shall accept the fact tht , i cldnt bring tht kind of happiness like how your dearest gt f you la. well , you hav tht attention frm your dearest , so treat me like invisible thn. i don`t wna b treated like a toy.

9MARCH

2007-03-09T08:37:00.000-08:00

haiyer , stupid sch. they put amaths/combined sci paper tgr f tdy. and yes i studied til i`ve fever last night.
nth gets into my brainy. wen t bed & thn gt up at 3am agn t mug tru my amaths agn.

gues wad , surprisingly amaths paper was alrgt f me INFACT MUCH MORE EASY THAN EMATHS. but nt t some of mymates luh. c'mon don`t b upset alrdy la. nd yes i was stunned tht i can d most of the qns. how great , vry :D
and i somehow screwed alittle f combined sci. i cldn`t rmb much.

BUT I`M... NO I MEAN WE`RE GALD THT COMMON TESTS ARE OVER ! ESP ME & TANEEFAN. HAHAHAHS
at last , i`m stress freeeeeeee. ohoh , i`ve gt 12 out of 16 f geog paper. man i`m so proud of myself ._.

anyw , trng aftersch. nd yes i`m so in love w tdy games . i`ve put in 120% efforts , no infact it`s more than tht on court. like totally , a vry nice feelg getting the team so communicate on court and help out , t get tht ball scored. nd this gt me thinkg , why am i feelg so... perhaps the confidence`s back. like yeah , really back this time rnd & nth gets into my mind while ballg. infact , i`m playg smart ball on court. i feel so weird abt it.
nd nw i`m doubt tht i had put some personal feelg on court the last time evn though i felt tht i didn`t afteral.

oh baby , i love tht fstbreak ! a glimpse of the back & pass out w a behind pass t get tht basket scored w a 2 on 1 situation. - done by Tanweiting :D
i stil cldn`t believe i did.

ohwells , gg f a tryout trng at home united tmr w somemates. hope i don`t feel tht weird feelg uh.
and tdy weather was torture. i`ve superduperultra sunburn on my face. boohoo , painful la !
let efforts being put in f tmr and hope f the best. righttttttt !

out in town w BFF RARA after tht tmr, like finally~
so yea i`m drop dead exhausted nw, night earthlings.

8MARCH

2007-03-08T03:14:00.000-08:00

so yea , gt up early nd go tru quickly f my dnt. met joey/ger/sarah at sidegate f sch. hahas so , we`re late ! nd walkg into the parade grnd is cool :D

anyw , evryone was stunned wen we flip tru the dnt paper. cos , it`s the same as the pre-test paper jst tht they chng some of it. Thankgoodness , i knw evry single thing. phew ! wel overal was quite straightforward la.

headache and gastric strike me after test . and i was feelg bad during lessons and so i wen t slp :/
til i dont evn knw cheena lessons had alrdy ended. emaths was irritating. screw you , mrs wee! wadevr okay
and yay adam &I hav gt nth much t d cos we had evrything completed f dnt practical. i`m satisfied uh :D

gt t ahs w joey/yannting f the finals. ahs won cch (girls) and yes ,dawn dont b sad okay. cheer up ! ohoh , cch won nass (boys). OMG la , colin and no 15 are like so strong okay. infact cch was great tdy.
ohyep , jiaolian showed me sth and someone gt into .... :D hahas congrats yea !

AMATHS / COMBINED SCI PAPERS TMR. this is hell ! and i`m stress uh. really :[
gues i`m gna mug til 3am alrdy la.
trng starts tmr , and i think i`m gna faint anytime.

7MARCH

2007-03-07T06:49:00.000-08:00

i`m so dead tired right nw but stil i`ve t blog.

but yea , can seriously say cheena paper was al copy & paste answers.
and evryone in sch gna cry out loud , cos we`re gna screw emaths paper up.
no joke , i can cry while do'g it okay. and Thanks i didn`t manage t get it done .
so goodbye emaths. i`m screwg you up.

mrs wee had been sayg this al along , if you fail thn off you g t the other emaths class & drop amaths.
like so ? evryone `s gna fail , thn wad t d? but wel , hope it won`t happen t me uh. i pray hard f tht ]:

dnt paper tmr & i`m stress over mermorising al the formulas. I WNA CRY OUT LOUD ]:
I`M STRESS. argh !

so , midnight oil?
like ofcos duhhhhhhh :/
i need coffee , yawns

anyw , gt dwn t ahs t watch match. and yea you`re great on court alrdy luh :D
so 3 cheers f you okay. hey you , hit my head. ass. takecare p l e a s e.

sneaked in the jys bus and haha i`ve free ride back t tamp (:
and yea like finally ate sth w diana aftertht and thn over t the carpark f some peace & fun.
it`s really nice okay & i wen back ther w kris & bao at night .
i saw STARS , SHINY PRETTY STARS. cool !

homed w ger after her adamkhoo wrkshop , and yes i cried when she briefly told me abt the parents stuffs
sigh & nw i knw , i had been quite a nuisance child t them when i`m young but well i`m grown up nw , mummy & daddy. don`t worry.
and yes sorry t fren out ther f always mkg you al so worried f me evryday . i`m sorry f al those slit'gs and al those crygs. i`m truely deeply sorry.
gues i`m tryg t get myself happy alrdy luh. righttttttttt.

why God , why at this point of time , whrby evrything is coming back. i`m stress i tel ya.
but yes Thankyou f helpg me out this time rnd. i knw , you`re here f me god :D
cos God replied t those rants i said.

6MARCH

2007-03-06T04:10:00.000-08:00

wahhhhhhhhhhhhh , seriously ! I`M LIKE A TOTAL NEGATIVE THINKG PERSON SINCE THN. i breakdwn evry stupid moment when i started think'g much. i breakdwn equal t no use yet the prb is stil gna b ther. i slit ? yes. since breakg dwn hav no use. but stil , the prb is stil there. counselling? er , if it helps , its gt b only f one day la jst t get me feel better but aftertht , negative thoughts agn . stil the prb is stil remains ther. one word : ' effing useless ' argh, wadevr.

i drank 4 cans and i`m dead drunk on the bed ytd night. gt up late f sch. met joey & ger outside sidegate. it`s like 7.15 and they told me it`s stil early ._. wdh ! so , joey &I walked into sch happily w ppl al lookg at us being so late t sch at parade grnd. hahas , but stil it`s fun i gues. Mdm Hafsah ( big time monster ) tot i folded my skirt & so , shes like al time pervert t lift up my shirt w/o tellg me. ended up , she wen speechless ! HAHAHAHAHS ! p l e a s e la , yknw wads alter? :/

oh , interclass competition`s coming right up. it`s used t b sports day but this year they chng it t sth special :D so , MY FORM CLASS - 3G2 IS GNA COMBINE W 3G1 T BECOME 3G ! man , evryone wen so high alrgt. SPORT CLASS OF THE YEAR , HOW ABT THT :D i`m getting excited , but sad t say no girls wna join bball 3 on 3 . so , i`m cant join , they put me in captain ball instead. wahhhhh , stupid can !

anyway , headache strikes during cheena lessons. and i was lying dead al the way. until WEEWEE( sengcheong) w tht gay voice gt me up.

weewee : ' weiting ~ wake up. '
me : ' (lookup) wah , recess liao uh '
weewee : ' eh , recess had alrdy started 10mins ago '
me : ' wdhhh , evryone pangseh me :( '

hahahas it`s like , the situation gg on damn hell funny la.
well , Thankgod WEEWEE gt me up :D

and yep , chem was the last period and Ms Yeo gt us stayed back. was suppose t meet Megan yeo weiqi. and i can`t evn pick up my fone cos ms yeo is like right infront of me. MEGAN CALLED ME 10 OVER TIMES ALRGTS. i`m feelg bad la. it vibrated until i cnt stand it tht i rise my hand and told ms yeo this...

me : ' msyeo , i need t tel you this one impt thing. '
msyeo : ' wad ? '
me : ' MEGAN RANG ME UP NON-STOP AND I`M MEETG HER LIKE RIGHT NW , SO LET ME PICK UP MY FONE. PRETTY PLS :) '
msyeo : ' er , no way '
me : ' whywhywhy ? c'mon one min only. plsssssssssss. if nt i feel bad la '
msyeo : ' no , i`m endg soon '
me : ' cries T.T megan , i`m sorrrrry , nt my bad alrdy '

LOLS , ended up i had t rush dwn t meet bernard.
and yknw wad , he caught me ytd was bcos he wans me t b a good role model t evryone. so he gt me wrote this stupid letter. tellg me t promise this and tht. stupid okay

and he wrote this dwn ...

THINGS T B DONE :
BLACK HAIR , CLIP UP HAIR , PULL UP SOCKS , TUCK IN MORE .

SIGNATURES FRM MDM HAFSAH , MS YEO & MDM TOH !

eh wdh can ! like no wayyyyyy i`m gna get my hair black . plus it`s always like tht la , i didnt dye pls !
sighhhhh , sad alrdy la T.T nevermind , sld g beg hafsah. =x

so ,rush out t meet megan. i`m so sorry okay. but thanks f waiting uh. i owe you one :)
and yep , bused dwn t inter t meet kris & dear. saw khai too ! over t ajisen f lunch. sorry la , kris. my fav , ysld knw! ate , stroll and thn acc dear t tke 293 over t st 81 and thn back over t 400plus. seeee , we`re nice yet nth better t do.

and sorry mummy , i`m jst paranoid nowadays. and yes , don`t worry yea. ~~i`ll get a job soon.~~
cheena & emaths CT tmr , midnight oil gna be on agn ! mugmugmug ~ i`m gg insane alrdy.

wads tht f ? i`m nt a toy f you t play wen you`re happy. nt happy thn throw me aside. or sld i put it this way , old toy nt nice , throw away thn g find a new one t play w. evrything came at the wrong time. and nw i`m confuse.

5march

2007-03-05T21:11:00.000-08:00

so it`s monday blue. england paper , SS/Geog paper were quite alrgt luh. dont wna comment much on it.
and i cldn`t concentrate much while do'g. i jst cldn`t la , okay. wads wrong w me , tel me. wads wrong ?

mrbernard took my student pass & i`ve gt t see him right after sch. yayayayaya. rant'g abt me over the same old thing , wad else? set a good role model f the class , f the team , f evryone. yaya , i ain`t a good role model uh. i`m effing useless. send me f counsel'g thn , i`m fine w it. i`ve no hope alrdy , wad f respect me f al these.

over t watch your game. i can tel you`re upset. i watch you played and i watch you fall. i scream f evry ball you gt in and i gt worried when you fall badly on the grnd. i don`t knw uh , i don`t knw how t get you feel better. infact i don`t evn think , i can cheer you up alrdy uh. thers other people out ther tht can do it better than me. right ? so why d i hav t b so distaught. evrything i did also bring nt much difference. gues i sldn`t hav gt the piece of draw'g f you. your life wil b so much better off w/o me being ther? i`m tired alrdy. seriously
i dont uds you , i jst dont uds.

and nw , nobody uds me. how can i carry on w life , when i`m getting myself so paranoid evryday.
i slit & i cry . thts what i`m gg on w life t keep myself less paranoid. i`m being honest , so people out ther. just leave me alone.

5MARCH

2007-03-05T20:03:00.000-08:00

12 midnight & i`m stil mug`g f tmr common tests. i`ve no mood at al. concentration level is really low la.
hope evrything gets into my head. ss & geog combine paper within an hour only. get it right , its only 1hour , which means only 30mins f ss , 30mins f geog. eh wdh , it`s al writing somemore. another writing paper tmr - england ! i wna cry pls T.T

so , i`m deeply hurt. i don`t how t put it , but yea why are you treatg me so differently frm the others. it`s a good thing or nt? evrything in the past is like nolonger exist right nw. for your sake , i did almost evrything i cld , but you didnt realised , it`s actually nt evry girl tht always do f a guy please. it`s you tht gt me so daring , so wna d like almost evrything f you. ya , i`m stupid . most people think i`m giv in too much. but why , cos you gt my life special. jst bcos i think it`s a worthwhile.

but nw , im treated like a effing burden.
if only you cld read my posts and uds how i feel each day.

i hadhad enough of al those cryg

4MARCH

2007-03-04T03:41:00.001-08:00

gt up f morng run at 5plus. my mind kept think`g tru many stuffs. frm the start on how i knw you til nw. it`s really nice but nw. i think it`s fading.

i don`t wish too , but wad can i do t mke it back t how we used t b?
and nw i`ve regret it al. it`s aint abt love , please. it`s the way you treat me.
and you didn`t knw how much i cherish you as a friend , perhaps a better friend t me.

i walked pass you & how i wish i cld ask you sth. but , i don`t knw why , i jst walked pass nt evn a glance of you. gt onto court and saw you balled , it`ve been long since we ball tgr. and god it`s nt being nice tht it actually rain al of the sudden. you`re jst bhind the pillar but i cld only hear your voice. but i`m afraid of facing you. i saw you walked away jst like how i did tht day & you left me speechless after tht reply.

why it is happening this way?
jst tel me why , wil you?

common tests are jst tmr & right nw , nth in the texts goes into my head.
slap me real hard on my face please.

4MARCH

2007-03-03T10:25:00.000-08:00

ohmyfgod , THIS IS CRAZYYYYYYYYY! it`s 3am plus right nw & i`m stil tht hyperactive. infact i`m nt evn slpy pls. gues i slpt too long this morng or sth , tht mke me feel like stayg up the whole night tdy. and yes , i miss chatting til early morng w BFF( fyi : it`s best fren forevr) oh , if i can i think i can evn g dwn f a early morng run right nw , since i`m so hyperactive. actually , it`s possible la , jst tht i`m afraid of the dark when thers nobody arnd. plus the street lamps aint workg at this point of time. i tel you`ll scream if you tell me run in the dark!

perhaps ltr on at 5am plus luh , i`ll mke sure i g dwn f a morng run (: since i`ve nth better t do. but partly bcos i wna JIANFEI !

since i`m tht free , shall g mug f my common test thn. and this is seriously unfair , sch gave us 1hr f the combine human paper. ( SS & GEOG ) cries T.T

ball'g session w good old frens ltr on at 3pm , how greatttt.
and i think FALL OUT BOYS `s coooooooooooool pls

3march

2007-03-03T06:12:00.000-08:00

SHEEEEEEEEE`S LOVE :D MY PRETTY LITTLE EYECANDY.

3march

2007-03-03T03:28:00.000-08:00

sigh , suppose t b out w BFF f shopping spree. but i turned dwn the outing w her ytd night. BFF , IF YOU SEE THIS. I REALLY WNA TEL YOU SORRY OKAY. I`M ABSOLUTELY SORRY :[ i promised t meet you out agn after my common test alrgts. i promise you f tht. wel ,baby believe me, i`m really absolutely sorry alrgts.
sigh , i feel so gulity. i wonder how you`re doing tdy. baby, heard you slit agn. c'mon stop w tht alrgts , although i do tht sometimes , but nw i think it`s pure foolish?
and so , ytd night was nt good. my mind was in a mess. and thts why i turned dwn the outing. sigh , and nw i`m distaught. seems tht i`ve made the wrong choices, i sldn`t let such happen'g control my feelgs. but stil , i breakdwn eventually. why sld i evn do tht in the first place? and nw i`m regret f walkg away. argh , i shan`t brood over it. shoo away the rain and let it shine tmr , god. pretty pls !

so , wanted t b on the bed f long tdy. but dearrrrr gerlyn ong routing always(nvr fail) like waking me up w those morng msgs. Thanksalot , routing :/ so got up and chng. she came over t my hse jst bcos of my dear comp tht she wnted t use f long. hahahas , and finally mummy asked me t get a new computer. ahem , wait get things right. its , ' she asked me t get a new computer using my own money. ' zZzZzZ !
so , wad sld i get . lap or desk? hmmmmmmmmm.

man i`m gg f a night run though it`s drizzling. but tht doesnt mean i can`t run under the rain. i think it`s gna b so super shiok ! awwwwww~

oh i`m stil wonder'g why am i so daring t d those stupid things?

2march

2007-03-02T06:43:00.000-08:00

like t hell w evrything. like i`m fine w it , told you guys t help out , might as well i do it by myself thn. b respectful uh , it`s like in their eyes , thers nobody talkg at al uh , they stil can happily chat w the one bhind , and the person infront talkg t them like as if talkg t the walls.

aftersch , team&sch wen dwn t bedok indoor court t support netball cdiv f their finals. like ofcos , i screamed like no tmr. soyep , congrats on winning champ okay.
headed off t nearby court f trng w team. but aftertht , was raing. so trng was cancelled. bused back t tamp , gt t tm f awhile. and homed. dwn t pat`s hse arnd 7. and thn over t primemart at 800plus. stunned t see dumb.

well , i`m really sorry okay. perhaps i sldnt hav replied you tht way. i sldnt always trouble you , t come dwn.
gues , you're right. i sld b more straightforward. sigh , i jst wan you t tel me seriously , evn though you told me you aint at al. why keep it t yourself , wen i myself knw tht i`m really useless. i dont evn knw how t uds you. wanted t cherish more but i think i`ve lost it anyw.

you didnt knw how pain it was , wen i turn my back and walked away. i actually wanted t headed back and tel you sth. but i dont knw how t , cos i dont wna let you see tht i actually breakdwn. sigh

1march

2007-03-01T05:31:00.000-08:00

wad a day , i`m freezing in sch. gt al the fans in class off and yet it`s stil tht cold. stupid adam goh ! beg him f the jacket , stil he`s tht selfish. wdh , i`m havg fever okay. but big deal , hahahs. i jst neeeeeed a jacket.

sch`s boring as usual. and Thanks , i didn`t manage t knw a single shit f my dnt pre-test. and i think i cant catch up w work. s h i t okay ): common tests are jst nxt week. thers vocab test tmr. 240plus words t memorise. urgh ! and aftersch , i`ve gt t stay back t work w tht socalled ' wonderful ' machine. and yes , i cant g and watch dumb`s match ): so u p s e t la. but well , congrats on getting into top 4 yea. oh and how cool , i mean nice of you t use tht towel. anyway , hahas did quite alot of stupid mistakes while workg out w tht machine. SIR KEPT ASKG THE CLASS T STOP WORKG AND HE CORRECT ME INFRONT OF EVRYONE -.-
but stil , manage t hav fun workg out (:

sec1`s are al havg trng up in the hall. wen t help out and look f megan&co. and i think , lying in the middle of nowhr in the hall is so niceeeeeee. you can emo al you wan and the whole hall is like as if belongs t you. haha!

back home , gt chng up and dwn t meet ger&quek at uncle shop , it`ve been long since we been ther uh. settled dwn at somewhr and chitchat , practically abt things tht we kept it inside us , so jst pour out evryting .
ohoh , i forgot , i sudden breakdwn twice. it`s sudden and they were stunned.

soso , it`s fri tmr. and thers netball final. dmn up against tkgs . hohs and i had a bet w bff , nomatter who wins , hav t g shop'g tgr on this upcoming weekend. like wdhhhhh , lame.
team will al b ther t support , right? (: goodluck netballers !

and it`s fri. shall i?
i saw tht msges alrdy. and i reall hope you wil uh. as in really , i yearn f it so badly ):

28feb

2007-02-28T20:36:00.000-08:00

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ate four extra panadols. this is insane i knw and fever is killing me. i`m burng hot ._. common test is jst nxt week & i`m gna b stress soon. haiyer , dear mate told me thers pre-test f dnt tmr. and Thanks i don`t evn knw a single shit thing f theory. oh cant believe tht i gt my cheena compo nicely written , giv me a better mark f tht please. haha :D random!

so , i`ve think things over. since my dear folks had been happy-g-lucky. why nt i b one too? being happy is wonderful right? so wad for am i getting my own life miserable. and get upset over stuffs tht i knw it aint gna get better if i continues tht way. soyea , i wna b happy infact someone gt my day better ytd. rightright? :D
and yes , as long as you`re happy , i`ll b gald. chewjunquan is my bestest dumb/brother ?

let nature tke its course & i`ll move on.
-updated.
chiuwen`s nice , i hell swear. :DDDDDDDDD

practically the whole day at home , didnt off t school infact. bcos i`m s i c k. but who gives a damn anw.
it`s a time f me t finish al up my homeworks. and thers trng in the afternoon which means i can`t evn g.
i`m sucha useless thing.

i dont wna giv a damn t mylife. screw it up f al i care. afteral , nobody uds how it feels.

GET A LIFE .

27feb

2007-02-27T07:18:00.000-08:00

ah fuck la , i cldn`t tke it easy and somehow my mood in sch wasn`t right at al. i`m nt even concentrating. i come t think deep into tht kind of prb i`ve gt , i breakdwn the nxt second. if nt , i don`t evn wna talk t anybody at al. get my work done and ther goes , lying on the table. g ahead and scold me tchers , i dont wna care.
and yes , sorry adam i knw you care but i`ve no reason t cheer up.

over t ger`s sch t look f them , thankgod thers rugby match . so i`ve reason t come in. somehow , i saw some people. i`m tryg real hard t let it g okay. but i`m afraid i`ll regret it al.

oh and i finally knw why i find tht girl tht i saw in kfc , f a m i l i a r alrdy. she`s once a jys student and also a closer fren t ger&co. she`s called chiuwen ! she`s nice and she gt my day better. why ? i`m nt sure , jst tht the i`m feelg really happy.

had a night run w ger jst nw and we ran 5 rnds arnd my sch. thts like arnd 3 or 4km plus? well , jst t sort out my feelgs. and after run , i pour out evrything t ger.
was really feelg better , til thn this hell gt me troubled agn wen i gt home. and i can say i dont wna giv a fuckg damn anymore. why am i mkg myself so miserable. i`ve suffer it al and wad i gt back was this kinda ignorance.

i can tel you , i jst wna it b back t how we used t b. like sister and brother or stupid / dumb. i mke it clear and straight.

26feb

2007-02-26T20:26:00.000-08:00

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yes fuck it , i breakdwn somehow. terribly indeed. evrything`s so contradicting tht mke me feel so troubled. i dont knw wad t d w my screwed up life. but stil , life has t g on nomatter how screwed issit. jst tht , t see whether you can tke it or nt. ya , i`m one of the kind tht cldnt tke it any longer yet i dont knw how t fade tht feelg away. my mind gt seperate into two thinkgs. one is t carry on and ease the pain , two is tht i jst need time t get evrything sort out. once said , snd simple but infact , it`s really hard t d so. actions speak louder than words. thts the thing tht i always failed in do'g so. up til nw , i gt evrything single thing mixed up. how t get it back t normal. like how it used t b?

well , talked it out w kris on fone jst nw. jst bcos i really dont knw wad t d , so i turn t her t help me out. yes , Thankyou you really talk some sense into me. after pour'g it out my troubles t someone and the big cry , i feel much better. so i wna mke up mind , but i need time.

i need a night jog soon t sort out my feelgs and t relax myself. perhaps tmr?
-updated.

i wna drop dead. i`m so tried & the burn on my face - is p a i n f u l. same goes t my legs and backbone. ahhhhhhhhhhhh s u c k okay. urgh ! trng w sec 1boys & girls plus me and megan,it aint nice. mrtan`s trng is hell tiring . actually it`s alrgt jst tht my concentration on court is jst nt thr. sigh , sucha disappointment.

and yes , i`m also a failure. evrything went speechless. gues i sldnt hav gt tht letter f you.
tel me if you care thn.

i`m tired mentally & physically.

25feb

2007-02-25T23:06:00.003-08:00

WAHHHHHHHHHHHH man , i`m slpy. hahas mug til 3am ytd and tdy wen t meet tallest at inter at 3pm. get settled dwn over at kfc. lunch-ed & get my work done. and so , work w loud blast`g music & chitchat at the same time. coooooool :D and yes thers this , punk-emo guy. his hair is hell nice okay ! straight away , he attracted my attention , after one glance. (p/s : its only bcos of his hair , nth else ) ohoh , i stil wna find out who is tht bung/girl tht sat near us , she somehow looks familiar t me. well mainpoint , tdy we gt ourselves laugh out loud. haha A-Z. ysld knw uh , tallest. HAHAHAS man wadabitch

gerlyn joined in and yea off t cs t get my haagen dazs ice-cream. funnything was , eatg ice-cream always gt me happy :DDD precisely ! awww , ice-cream is love. &tallest , dont b sad. cheerup and yes hidden words are cool -.-

off arnd 7. acc tallest/ger f their bus and off t someotherplace. gt homework done over ther and gt the stupid thing pen it out too. oh and thers this hell scary malay guy , stared at me and wen in the lift and wdh he bang the lift door. scaryyyyyyyy can! gt evrything done and doze off. gt up and its alrdy 10. well , was late alrdy so cabbed home& the driver is super sissy -.- two hours of waitg but yet i'm willing t wait la. stupid i knw, f you . i'm willing t d nomatter how stupid issit.
i turned out t b tht daring. nomatter how stupid issit , i'm willing t giv it a try. it`s for your sake. i gt evrything wrote in tht piece of paper. partly evrything , abt how i feel. i feel so much better after i pen it dwn. and ofcos , happy tht twt had mke up her mind. arhhhhhhh , i wna scream out loud :o LEAD ME T THE BEACH.

soso , sch's tmr. trng after tht w sec1 plus the 3 of us. me megan & joey. i wonder how its gna b like? and this sucks , my backboneeeeeee. it aint get'g better. oh i forgot , 120% effort :D shall seeeee. teeheehee!
~~oh t hell w you . get a fuckg life~~

24feb

2007-02-24T23:10:00.000-08:00

lunch w kris , g her hse t bainian w quek&co. play snack movie -hav fun , dinner out w family&relatives
= Tanweiting w bigbig appetite , eatg continously tdy jst t vent out her sorrow inside and laugh`g her ass out wen shes w her wonderful friends out ther.

so on the other hand , in conclusion. i can s e r i o u s l y say , Tanweiting needs t jianfei soon which is a must & yes , she`s gg on strong , can`t you tell people? she is gg t happy like patrick and ofcos spongebob :D rightright?

seeeeee , hes so happy can and yes whenevr i`m dwn , i`ll look at this pic and it really cheer me up you see.
i helllllll swear :D believe in me , try it . i`m sure he`ll mke you laugh out loud. awwwwww~

so , MISS TWT HERE , WNA SMILE T THE WORLD AND SHOW EVRYONE THT SHE`S GNA B HAPPY AND YES , NT T THINK TOO MUCH ( cant promise t tht but i`ll try)

LOOOK , SHE ALWAYS GO CRAZY OVER TWIST , FOOD AND ALSO G HIGH F NO REASON ._.

haiyer , lots of things t say but nt sure how t start it.but yea my feelg is so indescribeable and let evrything b the past.i jst wna start AFRESH ! back t how i used t b uh? ain`t it wonderful?

man , get a lifeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D

i've mke up my mind alrdy , kris. ysld knw uh. its gna b a yes f me t carry on. it aint abt love / like , it`s abt cherish baby ! i dont wna let g of tht special feelg or rather a relationship. plus , it`s real hard f me! it`s abt how much i care you see. but thers this little thinkg in my mind? it`s al abt the future. but well , whocares. shall see how thn. jst live life t the fullest.

ohoh , tallest had a night jog jst nw. and so , it suddenly gt me wna d it too. (bare in mind , i dont feel like jog'g infact i feel like sprint'g. HAHAS ! ) so yep its gna b part of my jianfei session and ofcos relax myself frm al problems. haiyeerrrrr , i feel like doing alot of things la.

mugging/slacking tmr , anyone ? :D SMS / CALL this happykid-91514528

nine.one.five.one.four.five.two.eight , get it? HAHAHAS!

23feb

2007-02-23T06:40:00.000-08:00

my mind is dying soon , mentally. yes i hell swear. my mind went wild and i've been thinkg too much nowadays. and i dont knw wad a fuck god happened t me this morng. yes i'm mkg you guys worried so much. i'm sorrrrrrrrry. perhaps i really need counselling soon. i'm get'g out of control soon. i'm afraid one day , your friend , tanweiting no longer exist wad she used t b. fine , i've been slit'g myself.

tht hell headache gt me dwn at the first 2 periods and how daring , i jst slp tru out during eng , infront of tcher somemore. and surprisingly i gt up f amaths test , my mind wen clear. qns given were a 60:40 chance f me t pass. hope it turn out t b a pass f me yea , doesnt matter its a border line pass or nt. and wdfh , those difficult qns , i gt it solved out w/o any prb and tht one simple hell qn gt me think til my brain wna explode soon. al of the sudden , i forgot how t get it solve :/

but urgh wdv , aftersch faster bused dwn t inter t meet kristie yeong ! train dwn t whitesand and hav sakae f lunch. and had al my rant'g spill out t her. and we're hell shag so we wen eat'g continuously t get ourselves happy and nt t think too much. thts the whole purpose anyw. its stupid i knw. but stupid people d stupid things , isn't it? but i feel much more better i gues. thanks kris & yes you d cheer up uh. nomatter wad , like wad you've told me , i'll b ther f you nomatter wad.

met twintowers over at joce's hse. stayed over til 5 and off t kfc t meet up w quek&co. they gt me hell cheerup. thanks alot uh cos i've nvr been laugh'g out my ass f long yea. oh& sosorry kris , i cldnt b ther t acc you over at town. cos yknw why uh. gt home arnd 7 and i cldnt stand , so i sneaked out t find quek&ger over at 450. and we've gt great laugh over at idealplace jst nw. I'M MISSING THE GOOD OF TIMES.

and nw , i knw how much i need t cherish things arnd me. evrything is fading far apart.
and i've nt been able uds you much enough.i dont wish f much , i jst wna b your bestest stupid and b ther f you nomatter wad. it aint abt love , its abt how much i cherish you. i really really dont wna lose you.

22feb

2007-02-22T05:53:00.001-08:00

EVRYTHING IS SO CONTRADICTING. WAD'S FUCKG WRONG W MYSELF?
and i've nth much to say. I'm such a fuckg loser. yes breakdwn is my pleasure. g ahead and send me f cousel'g I'M GLAD T B ONE OF THE MEMBER THER. slash'g kills but stil whocares anyw.
i meant wad i said.

21feb

2007-02-21T22:43:00.000-08:00

people arnd me , are al worried abt me. and yet i disappoint them. i cldnt hold back infact i wna cry out badly. yes i cried dont know how many shit times tdy. and al tht causes t b happened had many reasons bhind it. i jst dont knw how t explain it out. al happened at one go. studies , bball , personal stuffs. and i cant tke this kind of happen'g.
and so yeaaaaa i'm nw , right here at this time tryg t post out evrything i feeeeeeeel. cos i dont wna b like a burden bring'g prbs t ppl yea. and therefore the main point was tht , i'm tryg t tke it easy this time rnd and nt to think too much! anyone , agreeee? i think alot ppl gna agree t tht , cos they once told me & i said i'm hopeless. so yes , i'm gna listen t you guys. happy nw?

so wel , i wna really thanks megan yeo weiqi & joey f being ther f me this morng. ysld knw why. and yes , too evryone in class tht cared so much. esp prettybitch , girlfrens/brothers and ofcos tofu tht tryg t get me cheerup. i appreciates alot and i'll always d. AND OFCOS T BRENDA CHONG WANYI tht gt this small lil note put into my file wen i gone f dnt lessons. s e r i o u s l y , i gt breakdwn right after read'g it and i jst wen out of class in the middle of lessons. and funnything was , tcher dont evn knw i walked out ._. but well , really thankyou f tht cos it really talk sense into me yea. and ofcos , missyeo tht always uds me so well. yes , i so gna reflect on wad you've told me tdy ok. oh sorry t those tht i didnt reply the msgs.

and yaya , sorry team f tdy. ok i'm such a letdwn t youguys and coaches. jst bcos i didnt really played well during trng w the boys. those overturns tht i made were really stupid mistakes tht i sldnt hav made it.
ok , i knw its really stupid but i really lost the communications w youguys on court. yknw , me joey & megan cant played w youguys jst bcos mrwong wna let you guys play along w those sec1s t prepare f the upcoming cdiv and somehow , i find it hard t play it like wad we used wen we're in lastyear. but i can seriously say , i've nvr put my personal feelgs wen i'm on court.but well ..nw , i knw how much more i need t improve and ofcos those scold'g frm mrwong jst nw really mke me feeeeeel like put'g in more effort , nt 100% but 120% ! ya he's right , i sldnt hav b so rush t get tht ball passed out infact its more abt your clever brain inside your head. tht ball is in your hands and so mke tht clever decision. key point : PLAY SMART BALL & dont feeel upset on court evn if the coach scold you , listen and thn forget abt it .and carry on wad you sld d on court ! right team :DDDDDDD i'm mus learn t b a strong plyer on court. shall see abt it the nxt trng !
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T TEAM , BFF , TALLEST , GER , KRISTIE , AHCHEW , HUIJIA, T EVRYONEEEEEEEE :
I LOVEEEEEEEE YOU GUYS & I APPRECIATE YOU GUYS F ALWAYS BEING THER F ME.
HEART!

and also t you , boy i dont knw why but yea mayb i'm thinkg too much or sth. cos i feel tht you're nt really happy sometimes , if its bcos of me f sayg those stuffs or jst bcos of me f bring'g so much prbs t you. , i jst wna say sorry. i dont wna see you feel so upset and yea hope we can b in contact like how we jst t b . i missed the good old time :(

20feb

2007-02-20T23:06:00.000-08:00

i'm tryg t force tht smile out of my face okay. nobody wld wans t see me upset i knw. i'm tryg real hard t b strong out ther. tryg t b as happy as i cld w my frens. but sorry . i can seriously say i really wna breakdwn at the moment wen i'm w you jst nw. i dont evn knw how you feel. whenever i turn t look at you. i really find myself hell useless. perhaps you aint need me t b ther f you uh ? you said i'll always b your stupid but i think i dont deserve t b one at al. you sld knw me well , i've nvr let g at al.

19feb

2007-02-19T12:18:00.000-08:00

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i've no mood f anything. i tot after findg tallest t get al my rants out. and i'll feel better t g out w my clique tdy. but ended up i'll always b back at home feelg like breakg dwn any moment whenevr i see those unpleasant stuffs. god is like treatg me like a loser. tryg t mke me suffer as much as i cld. i tot i'm strong alrdy. tryg t tke things easy. one step at a time. but the bad side of me is taking control. it aint nice , mkg me feelg so terrible tht i'll hav t b like an emoidiot. stop treatg me tht way as if i can tke it jst bcos if been suffered al along. and nobody wna care how i feel anw. evrything is nt gg smooth right after tht day. and i knew it always.

okay i'm really sad okay. really absolutely sorry jq. it isnt your bad infact its my bad.
i'm gulity. sigh.

tallest , perhaps its jst a false hope yea.
i've screwed up evrything.

18feb

2007-02-18T22:14:00.000-08:00

evrything is so happen'g right nw. and al of the sudden.
it turn out t b socalled ' ignorance or wadsoevr'
al thanks t the bill thingy.
the msg'g cuts dwn. and therefore the talk'g gets cut dwn too.
i've no point t start the conver thers nth more i can say.
my mood gt spoilt somehow.

18feb

2007-02-18T00:28:00.000-08:00

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its new year baby and i'm nt tht excited at al la. wad so nice abt it , infact i'm tired travel'g here & ther pls.
i travelled t tamp t sengkang t amk t yishun. plus each areas , i've t visit dont knw how many hses la.
and yea , ahma's hse is always tht crowded w my relatives. and evryyear i'll received dont knw how many thousands of rantings frm them. yaya wadevr i'm brown in colour la -.- zzz ohoh and my cousins they're al so grownup nw :D and ofcos my mr uncle kennnnnnnnnnny. he's the nicest among al and ofcos he always treat twt the best frm baby til nw. rightright :D seeeee aww! the whole family photo taking is so nice ok. i'll post it up after i receive frm my uncle yea. and didnt i tel you , i so gna b fatttttt soon. endless steamboat sessions and those fastfoood. man i better cut dwn and jianfei alrdy la. but stil steamboat t me is love cos the bond'g w family is so niceeeeeeeee. ha , i've lots of red packets people. and being a goodkid half of it credits t my mummy :D

whole day of msg'g w tallest & BFF
and i feel s a d.

you're being missed by twt , chew.
s i g h s
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sorrrrrry uh dumb , i didnt knw you're online and you neeed t b off tht soon you see. so S A D can ]:
SORRY uh multiply by 14 ! yaya , i miss you like no tmr. i admit f once. zzz
updated- 1.23AM.

HEEHEES 12midnight and its newyear! happy cny ,folks :D and nw i've BFF, fyi >its best fren forevr t acc me t chat til 3am. supposed t b 4am , but tmr is newyear. we don't wna hav panda eyes ! HAHAS and S A D S A D S A D cos of the stupid telepathy bills and ____&I've t cut it dwn! s i a n s & nw hes being missed by twt :( well nvm shall nt b bad of gettg his bill exceed agn. sorrry uh , i'm stil gulity can !

17feb

2007-02-17T10:23:00.000-08:00

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god phew , blogger almost gt my whole blog screwed up man. so wellwell , this afternooon over at aunt hse was boring. al the kids are like below my age, ended up i've t acc them play monopoly. heehee :D funny can !
stayed up til 4 and back home f dinner w family. yay my elder sister is finally back home after studyg over at ntu f long. i miss her can ! so , this year dinner is nice i gues. a hongkong lady and a china lady which are my parents' friends came over t join us too. how nice you see~ and i turned out t b so cheena jst nw. my mummy is like so HAHA !and mygod , i'm F U L L after tht wonderful steamboat la. twt, you're gna b F A T soon :x
heehees , my permission is approved by parents. bcos i'm wna join in w them f wine/beer session ltr on.

ohmy , i'm sorrrrrry uh . i caused you t exceed your bill too much alrdy. i feel so :( can! soyea , lets cut dwn. but .. i'll miss your msg can. heehee :x

TEEHEEHEE :D its chinese new yr eve people! and i'm over at my aunt's hse right nw f lunch (: howwww great ! and my nieces areeeee so adorable la~ HAHAHAS.

:D
randomrandom.

16feb

2007-02-16T12:08:00.000-08:00

and so yea. someone only has t sch f 2hours tdy. so unfair yea! eng lessons were mafan. cos , mdm toh told me t send ppl dwn t see mrbernard continuously. i gt up and she said this ' sorry weiting , you'll hav t send these ppl dwn agn ' like wdh , its tiring okay ! ohwadevr can. soyea , amaths retest is on nxt thurs , upcoming test is after cny and right after tht common test. like mygod can ! s i g h s ): oh and phy test , i some how gt screwed alittle bit but stil i think i'm gna pass it stil . the only prb was my emaths test. some mates seem t struggle w some of those qns too yea. esp the last 2 ! like wdh , i fgot how t get the freakg ans alrdy luh. S A D pls ! totally , but stil hope its gna b a pass f me yea :D

aftersch was 5oshots and 3rnds f team yea. the only hardworkg ppl out ther in the hot sun , trng up and hope nt t get fat during cny. hahas ! and the weather was god- BURN'G PLS ! was U P S E T cos of emaths but the 50 shots gt me superrrrr satisfied aftertht. and yep , thanks i've super red sunburn on my stupid face you see.

TM-ED and happened t saw :D and thn over t :D's hse t get tht gift passed. and thanks f send'g me over t the busstop yea. i didnt avoid or afraid of you okay. and i told you i've sunburn la. so stop look'g can ! but you gt my day happy tdy la , lovelove :DDDDDD
takecareeeeeeee multiply by fourteen !

T A L L E S T 's niceeeeeeee :D

15feb

2007-02-15T17:42:00.000-08:00

hohohohohohohohohohos i wen high ytd & tdy i wen evn higher -.-
and so , tdy is total defence day. tdy morng assembly was god damn long la. boring~
sch was pretty alrgt , pe didnt wen dwn f pe due t ...... s u c k s okay. acc joreen at the same time :D cheena lessons was quiet cos , mdmhsu gt mrbernard t control the class. and yay mrsum postponed tmr amaths test t nxt fri. and tdy remedial t nxt thurs instead. hahahas , see afteral , hes the most reasonable tcher evr. nt like some tchers , say gt amaths test stil put phy & emaths tests on tmr :x dnt was practical tdy :D i'm sooooooo satisfied w my workpiece can ! grinsgrins.

well well dumb cheeeeeer up multiply by 14 :DDDDDDDDDDDDDD
and you're like so dao can.

tdy post is super random. boringggggggg ~

14feb

2007-02-14T22:29:00.000-08:00

HAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPY VALENTINE PEOPLE. haha , had been gg arnd sayg happpy fourteen instead. cos fourteen is my fav number :D i prefer sayg tht way & someone dont get wad i mean this morng ._. hahas!
wel ANW , although its vday but stil sch is as per normal la. ohsobored and tiring !

shall summarise evrything like i did ytd.
sch is bored bcos......
dnt was 3 periods of theory. non-stop talkg frm mrng & the class jst wen drop dead. and english was god funny cos mdm toh told me t send weewee dwn t see dm instead we wen stroll'g arnd sch :x and he wen hiding in the male washroom. tht sicken'g boy ._. cheena was okay , but the class gt mdm hsu mad and she jst storm out of the class. recess was exchnging of gifts w people :D thanks f the cupcake & al yea. ss was fun , cos mr imran showed us a cartoon clip and music was played t get us relax while work'g out w stuffs. andand lastly , mrkang postponed our test t this fri. its suppose t b tdy. but our class jst wen blur and said they didnt knw abt tht -.-

so the main point was t prove tht my classs is really get'g out of hand. but stil , wad can i do ? hahahas. &
god , this fri i'm so gna b dead. havg 3 impt tests at one go. amaths , emaths & phy. S I G H S !
i better nt flunk any of them yea. god bless me & mates.

aftersch , trng-ed. weather was freakg hot & i've gt sunburn right nw.
pretty slack i gues. and t my wonderful teamates hope you guys like the chocos frm me & megan yea. lovelove:D enjoy la ~
and thanks tallest & bff f the 14 lollipops , muffins & sunflower :D

dumb is so dumbdumb :D

13feb

2007-02-13T20:45:00.000-08:00

HA FIRST THING FIRST ! MR YONG AKA MY PRETTY BITCH JST GT HIS FIFTHTEEN PUNCHES FRM ME TDY. WELL , HAPPPPPY FIFTHTEEN LA !

oh & good f me cos i've gt my vocab test passed. cos i've studied :) randomrandom :x
mr imran giving his oh so pervert lookg face during ss,oh, zul's fone jst rang like al of the sudden during lessons. we're stunned & its hell funny i swear. his reaction was like -.- , mrswee wna mke my life miserable during emaths ( like i dont giv a damn ) english was fun cos , al of my mates gt sent dwn during lessons. so the class was like.... empty ! gt my geog test passed & ofcos , chem test was chicken feet.
haha tryg t summarise evrything. al like bullshit anw ._.

aftersch , off t tm w megan & co. t get vday stuffs. and nw ,i'm busy do'g it. so ya. pretty short post.
teammmmmm , i've surprise. so b touch eh , cos twt & megan dont do it often ! lets pretend we dont knw its vday , jst treat it as tday uh :x saw many familiar faces too. yeenei & clari , thanks f the gift :D lovelove !

ha , someone is curious eh. but stil , i cant tel you anw. hinthint !

12feb

2007-02-12T15:00:00.000-08:00

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well , i'm really gald tht you're feelg good alrdy yea. hope tht dp do cheer you up la. seems tht , thts some sort of past memories tht i did la. stupid -.- and you've it put as your dp too. awww :D

BFF : HEY GIRL , CHEERRRRUP LUH. NO WORRIES OKAY ,I'LL HELP YOU NO MATTER WAD.
AND THT HAPPYMEAL TOY GT ME LOL :D

TEAM : WELL EVN IF TRNG IS ON THIS COMING FOURTEEN BUT DONT FEEL SO DISHEARTEN ALRGTS. WE'LL SUFFER AS A TEAM AND WE'LL CELEBRATE AFTER TRNG OKAY ! I TREAT YOU GUYS BEN & JERRY'S AS VDAY GIFT YEA ! SO TO SOME OF YOU GUYS IN THE TEAM FEELG SAD BCOS YOU GUYS CANT CELEBRATE W YOUR VALENTINE . ITS ALRGTS , COS I CAN ALWAYS B AL OF YOU GUYS , MS VALENTINE YEA :DDDDDDDDD loveeeeeee!

ohoh , no matter wad i'm tryg t get the patrick/ spongebob stuffs frm urban concept by myself. if anyone out ther is niceee t get it f me. i'll b so gald yea. haha hinthint !

updated- 2227hours.

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distraught yet useless. i cant do anything t get you cheerup. takecare
& so , BFF & TALLEST GT ME SUPRISED. they came al the way frm their sch t my hse t deliver me , happymeal & donut ! like thank you loves. i've feel'g better alrdy. sorry if i'm stubborn but stil you guys really mke my day jst nw. HUGS !
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urgh , i jst feeel so hopeless. i cant evn feel tht hes sad or wad. infact , i gt him so U P S E T but sayg tht after he told me. evn he doesnt feel its my bad or wadevr , i jst feeel so useless tht i cant b ther t get him cheer up.
gt me so heartbreak. perhaps , i dont wish t disturb you any further. i've no stand in you at al. sigh , i'm sorry.
i'm nt a good stupid.
updated - 1730hours

sickbay-ed jst nw & i'm home alrdy. i'm feelg sucha useless idiot. mrwong saw me jst nw. ya , i'm down agn & once agn , i've disappoint you & the team. infact i sucha disappointment t evryone. evrything is nt gg smooth infact god is giving me a miserable life. totally unfair yet i stil hav t accept it. yes , i'm nt okay. i'm jst nt good t b a chair , a captain or evn a good stupid ,dumb. nobody uds how i feel , the feelg of it is... undescrible-able.
tryg t b strong out there but i cldnt mke it afteral. so jst why do i evn worth being concern by you guys out there? i'm only a useless fucktard people.

i dont knw if t carry on this coming fourteen. perhaps , i've alrdy lost evrything.

11feb

2007-02-11T23:17:00.000-08:00

out w ger tdy. trained dwn t town. taka , cine , heeren , fareast ! searched high & low f newyear clothes. bought tee frm fresh imp & its coooooool okay :D diana came over t find us at fareast , happened t saw quek&co too. ohoh & this green tee guy attracted me. cos its greeeeeen -.- trained dwn t bugis w al of them while zh left tgr w xq.gt seperated w quek & diana. gt rnd & rnd at junction/street . dont wna giv a damn , so jst bought some tees and gather back tgr w them at arnd 2000hours plus. mosburger-ed & thn homed alrdy.
i'm tiredddd alrdy . so lazy t post much abt tdy.

& i was supposed t b a happykid. yes i was one jst nw.
but i aint one anymore. tel me wad t do.
wads more god wans me t carry on & suffer.
you dont wan me t get upset
yes i knw , but you jst dont knw wads gg on bhind.

nbody uds how it feels anw.
oneyear & nw its always tht screwed up f me.
forget it.. jst bring it on , god.

10feb

2007-02-10T23:29:00.000-08:00

PHOTOS :
school-

thanks TALLEST & BFF :DD

mr adam goh zhong jun , tofu !

:D

tchers' concert-

she's gayyyyyyyyyyyy lookg.

megan yeo w her tht smile agn.

kinda dumb but wadevr. hahahhas

carnival-

mrbernard gt sponge-d ~ hes so cuteeee la

aye spongebob squarepant :)

SMACK THT !

cathay & plaza sing-

cheeeeese !

feeeed me w ben& jerry's

dumb look'g

:pppppppp

it's ben&jerry's

seee tht & its real heaven laaaaaa

it says tht , no sit'g

but stil , she dont giv a damn abt it.

hahahahas. stupid i knw la.

recess(school)-

nth better t do.

but its so cooool okay !

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was late jst nw. sorry people :x i fell aslp somehow cos dumb told me t rest. so i wen & i fgot the time. but well , sarah & yannting were late too cos their at the same bus as me. coooool. saw BFF & TALLEST at inter btw :D
pasta-ed and thn back t sch f the tchers' concert at 1900 hours. well , overal was hell boring. except f the part whrby thers mrbernard & the long hair tcher ( fgot her name alrdy ) they're HELL FUNNY I SWEAR & HOT TOO ! mrprata-ed t acc them f supper & thn back homed alrdy. dumb wen off right after i sign in :( sorry luh , i gt back home late. takecareeee luh! i'll get your strepsils sooon yea. i dont care

wad a day , gt up early in the morng evn though its saturday. sch carnival is on tdy ! nt excited at al , nth big deal anw. hahahas :x wen t sch t get the stall set up & my class is like pathetic la. & some idiotic and stupid + dumb students i think gt our icecreams kept in the fridge. like pls la , keep ther wil melt can. useee brain laaaa !
urgh wadevr ! wen rnd forcing ppl t buy things frm me:D HAHAHS ! walkg arnd w the dumb board on me , i swear its hell funny :) and i look dumb can. had my shift frm morng til 3. & i'm feeeel slpy right nw. tallest , BFF & GER came too. thanks you so much eh ! and mates , well done tdy ! ohoh , mrbernard gt sponge-d w water :DDDD hes cute la ! shall end here , nt much i wna say la. tireddddddddddd ~

tchers' concert at night ltr on. gna b great i gues. seeya matesssss !
backbone? sigh

9feb

2007-02-09T22:28:00.000-08:00

ITS FIRDAY BABY ! & i'm always lookg forward t weekends :DDD kinda tired during sch & aftersch , cabbed dwn t ahs right away. gt in time t watch dumb's game. well , congrats yea! bboys match was after theirs. well done guys but stil dont b sad alrdy ok, left at halftime w joey. cabbed back t my hse & gt chng up. and dwn t meet krisite on the bus. trained dwn t plaza sing and tdy we're like hungry pigs ok :x strolled arnd & i swear boys' stuffs are indeed hard t shop. kris& I dont evn noe wad t get la , c'mon brainstormmmmmmmm tanweiting ! i jst wna mke it special you see & fourteen's a v good number yea. and like finally had ben&jerry's at cathay. its god damn heaven laaaaaaaaaaaaa. i wan more of the banana + peanut + choco :D ( i fgot wad issit called but wadevr , its really nice ! ) wellwell , like always we both took a whole lot of stupid pictures. funnnnny la! slacked arnd & trained back at arnd 2030hours. had great fun tdy but stil tiredddddd & slpy

sch carnival is on tmr ! gna b a big day. stalls set up by al of us , soyep al outsiders are welcome. so do come la & patronize yea. and tchers' concert at 7tmr. how great , team is al gna b ther t g high w me :DDD ohoh i'm so gna b high yea! like always. i wna seee how mrbernard performs tmr. i swear hes always funnnny but come t disciplinary stuffs , he can b damn scary luh.

& yep dumb , takecareeeeee. you're the one tht always mke me so worried nt me okay.
and i didn't dao you uh , its bcos you're busy. didnt wna disturb la.
well , i'll get you more strepsils sooon okay. no chocos anymoreeeee !

BFF : hey girl you gt me so worried & your replied like hell slow okay.
but well , takegoodcareee. cheerrrup :DDD

sigh , the pain at mybackbone is bad each day. wad sld i do? doctor , stop trng ? i dont wish too anw.
but stil , i'm really afraid yea. well , you dont hav t b so worried yea. i'm gna b fine anw. love

sorry kris , those pictures taken tdy wont b post up tdy , perhaps tmr yea. i'll try !

8feb

2007-02-08T21:14:00.000-08:00

evry morng i've gt t mke the class t move dwn t the parade grnd and frm ther. i kinda feel useless. thers no use tel'g them alrgts. like pls , dont mke my life difficult uh. it aint nice get'g scolded by mrbernard on the behalf of youguys. it aint difficult t move your legs dwn right. jst say less and get moving la ! and bcos of the class , i hell gt scolded by mrbernad during amaths lesson. mrsum was away f tournament & i'm responsible. i trust the class, yes i do. i let them t move in and out w or w/o my permission cos i dont hav the right t control you guys right. but stil , you guys can b control f like alil bit? and the irritants in class are really get'g on my nerves.
they played wwe in class & gt the whole class messed up. and nw , i'm get'g scolded and anything happens. i'm wil b lightly t get suspend frm class instead of them. like wad logiccc la. get a life , class. we're in sec 3 alrdy. our impression f tchers are gg dwn alrgts. god , perhaps i aint a good chair uh. sigh , forget abt it. i shall get used t it anw.

sch as usual like always , dont wna talk abt it. after was some chi activity f the sec2&3. and thers hong yuyanggggggg frm campus ! :DDDD hes sing'g is cooooool & i gt high. other than tht , the rest of the activity was oh-so-boring. and well , sneaked out ofcos ! hahahas , cboys hav'g friendly w jys cboys tdy. and we girls played w their sec 1 too. sigh my backbone's hurt'g & i'm afraid alrgts. hais , i dont wna giv a damn.

geog test tmr & i'm sort of tired right nw.
well , dumb ysld knw but stil always thanks f the concerns ok.
seeya tmr.

7feb

2007-02-07T22:45:00.000-08:00

yaya dumbdumb , lied t me ytd. HA , afteral i'm cleverrrrrr. and someone said ------ too la. hahahas i wonderrrrr who ? :D
like so , promised t g bed early & ended up i'm stil tired this morng. hell tired instead ! and the class gt me irritated. i can tel tht tchers are irritated too. eh class , tchers wna teach can you guys kindly shut f awhile.
i jst dont wan tchers t feel tht our class cant b control la , it aint nice havg tchers sayg arnd tht our class are terrible. infact , i dont wan our class t giv troubles t msyeo okay !
like so , i gt scolded by bernard on behalf of the class. and i feel like laugh'g wen he tels me tht.
he said this to me : ' weiting , your class 3G2 is giving trouble t the student councillors. whenevr the councillor off the fans & lights & get you guys dwn t assembly area . your dear mates wen t on it agn. and givs trouble t the councillor. and the nag'g goes on & on ' -.- like once agn , i'm held responsible f evrything. i wonder wads more coming up & i hope this sat carnival is gna b fine :D right , class ?! hahas

ohyar , i jst rmb , tdy dnt wasss scaryyyyy. cos the drilling machine gt me scream'g away. i gt a cut i think. geeeees scaryyyyy la. andand t add on , i sort of screwed my ss paper & my dear deskmate jonathan fan enjie wen slpg during tht period of time. and he wrote nth at al . seriously , hes pro cos we're sitting infront of mr
imran somemore -.-

wel , aftersch. wen t wrkshop t gt my dnt done. and off t trng at 4. the weather was nt goood & my backbone somehw gt hurt i think. trng kinda slack but stil tired la ! oh we combine trng w those sec1 boys & we've hell lot of plyers tdy. team played 5on5 w them while joey& I were refereees. hahas , can say we gt screwed up & the funny thing was , both mrwong & tan wen scream'g at us & i can giv them tech fouls f tht you see. actually t mke us feel scared luh :DD well , nice hav'g the court filled w laughters yea ! girls , nice game :)

to BFF : HEYYYY YOU'RE WELCOME ALRGTS. LIKE ALWAYS THANKS F EVRYTHING. YOU'RE LOVED BY TANWEITING, GIRL . BLESSED & STAY AS A HAPPYKID ALWAYS

&
to yaya dumbdumb:
you're one funny thing :D lovelove !

ohoh , jo gt me a cute love shaped choco this morng as breakfast :D how nice of you. its heaven la.

sry , i get those pics post up somedayltr yea

6feb

2007-02-06T20:04:00.000-08:00

sch was ultra bored & tired. like dont knw how many tchers had been nag'g at my class frm 2000hours-2400hours tdy. al are like irritating monsters t me. hahars :D i'm attentive in class like always evn though they nag like monster but whocares , nt my prb anyway. they nag , i slp . they start lessons , i pay attention. thts al la! and its a waste of my time ! mrsweeee didnt come f lessons tdy. how great , i hopes she'll nvr come agn. pls la , mrsneo chng her away can. waste al our time , her nag'g took 3/4 of the lessons. like you see , how t studyyyyy!

stayed back aftersch f vocab re-test & tdy my luck isn't good. hahas , my' anyhow crap in ' method failed ! but i did tke the test seriously la. msyeo , wen tru onebyone f me and adam&co acc me :D thanks la , irritants.
and out t mrprata t acc them f their lunch. drank & wen off t wait f meganyeo at mainentrance. waited f like half&hr & she told me, she cant get out of sch , her dear tcher made her stay til 6 tdy. soyep , nvm la ! bused dwn t inter , wen t look f BFF&TALLEST awhile & thn over t tm t look f ger&co. acc them awhile and off t kfc t study w ger. lamer & dawn came t find us and al of us gt home right after the clock strike 6 :D

and thanks BFF F THE LONG ENCOURAGEMENT. yknow wad issit yea ! :D I'LL GET YOU BACK ONE SOMEDAY LTR YEA ! and also donuts or mayb sth else la. yepyep :) cheeeer up tooo !

& someone said tht he doesn't bear t eat the chocos frm stupid. i wonder who uhhhhh ! hahas , awwww seeee i'm nicee like always. rmb , one a day only :DDDD i wannnnnn chocos too , shareeee leh. HAHAS :D

5feb

2007-02-05T22:05:00.000-08:00

ok , sorrrrrrrrrrrry peeps. i was monday blue tdy. sorry f those unreplies. really troubled yea.
but well , manage t get cheer up by those jokers in my class. hell funny i tel you! and yep , rmb i told you guys i dont wna hav tea w dm or whoevr right. & i'veeee gt tht al time scary monster nth t sayyyyyy at parade grnd la. she's like : ' hey , lift up your shirt , you gt fold your skirt ? why so untidy lookg. '
andddd she wen shut after lift'g up alrgts :DDDDDD FUNNNY EH , i dont evn like fold'g skirt la , pls la . thers one thing called alter -.-
other than this , rest of the day in sch was pretty slack tdy, mdm toh wen nagnagnag & i wen drop dead on the table til recess plus i dont evn its recess wen i gt up , evryone had alrdy rush dwn t the canteen you see. so i continued being so dead in classs w loud blast music over the PA systems. my classs like havg party uh :D cute bodoh ! ohanw ,al bballers skipped assembly & wen out of sch at 1 , special students get t d so. haha no luh , like D-U-H. cabbed dwn t ahs w mates & juniors. boys match was at 3 , so bfore tht thers physical trng f us arnd the neighbourhood. hell tortureeeeee okaaaaaaay ! we ran 3 rnds of one hellll big routeeeeee. nono , some of us thts include me, ran four instead of three al thanks t tht joey kwek ! she lead the wrong route okay and was asked t mke up one more rnd. andand run'g uphill is nt nice at al infact , the gravity is pull'g me dwn la ! dwnhill aint nice too , scary can ! the feel'g was nice after finish'g the 4 rnds. but the feel'g was evn nicer after sprint'g another 5 times uphill. i love sprint'g more than run'g longdistance and mymates called me crazy bcos of tht -.- okay and bcos of liking sprint'g so much , i sprint al 5 w/o stop'g. and i've gt leg cramp wen i gt back t ahs. and hell , i screamed like nobody business and evryone was staring at me , cos its hell pain i tel you. and tadaaa , i cant walk w my left leg , i can only hop arnd !

anw , jys won dmn . a close fight you seeeeeeeeeeeeeee! and hell , i stil can clap wen i'm lyg on the grnd scream'g in pain la. seeee i'm supportive right ! dumb :) alrgts la , and on my own mother sch side , i think things aint gg right f my sch bboys. sadddd stil ! hey yong , my very good pretty bitch/ girl ! ( fyi , i always call him tht ) cheeeer up ok , like promise i can let you punch me tmr t vent your anger. but anw , he punch me like evryday. and i gt him back w a superduperultra hard punch ! same goes t tofuuuuuu , mradam ! i knw you're unhapppppy but stil youguys stil hav another 2years right ! like ofcos , special treatments f you guys tmr , i can let you guys punch or slap since you guys like do'g tht t me. ( FYI : ONLY ON HANDS , NO FACE THANKYOU ! ) & t the rest of the mates , cheeeerup !

aftergame , ger cabbed dwn t look f us , tallest & rara were ther too :) so mates wen dwn t ball while i've a longchat w rara&tallest agn ! and rara is my BFF :D thanks f tht fourteen donuts and tht lil cute note you guys pasted on my shirt yeaaaaa. hahahhas same goes t tallest :D loveeeeeee ! rara , hang on there , i've hang on alrdy !

AND YAR , THANKKKKKS F TEL'G ME OK, I'VE LEARNT T ACCEPT IT ALRDY :D I KNW NOMATTER HOW LONG I'VE WAIT , I'VE NVR REGRET ABT IT AT AL . I'M GG ON STRONG RIGHT NW , COS THERS ALWAYS YOU BEING THER F ME. RIGHTRIGHT :D YOU'RE FOREVR & EVR MY DUMB , BOY :DDDDDDDDD LOVEEEEES !

& i've promised you & al the peeps out ther , i'll b a happppppykid. but stil depends on how the situation goes. hahas :D & hey , i've nt lose afteral instead its a victoryyyyyyyyyyyyy!

once agn , congrat on win'g dumb&co. dont mke me worry you dumb ! takecareeeee.
enjoy the chocos okay !

4FEB

2007-02-04T22:27:00.000-08:00

gt t bed at 6 this morng. al night had been chattg w rara & edit'g of stuffs. gt up only at 9+ tdy. get ready and met ger at 11+. wen t meet ahchew & wanquan at inter. lunch-ed at foodjunction and thn trained dwn t bugis afertht. saw , rachel dianachoo & quek zhihui and yingqi? at platform. so , we al get tgr t bugis cos al of us are headg ther too. and wen 3 seperate ways after reachg. shopped arnd junction & street. was hell irritated by the crowd. saw yiliang&co too , oh andand huisan :) cldnt stand the crowd so headed t town aftertht. fareast-ed and gt back t tamp quite early cos they're restless alrdy. gt back t tm , strolled alittle and wq&ahchew left while tallest joined me&ger. wen t ntuc t get my chocos f ______. mac-ed and thn homed alrdy. gt a long chat w tallest and yet i'm stil tht stubborn.

hais , i dont kwn wad t do alrgt. you didnt knw how upset i was.
i cldnt bring myself t stop being sensitive
al i knw was t breakdwn so easily.

tel me yes or no.
and i'll let g.
i dont wish t get upset agn , nvr wil it b on the fourteen

4FEB

2007-02-04T03:18:00.000-08:00

HAHAS . ITS 3AM NW. AND I'M STIL AWAKE.
IF THERS NO RARA HERE T CHAT W ME , I THINK I GNA FALL A SLP SOON LA.
BUT THANKS ALOT GIRL , F AL THOSE SHARING AND STUFFS.
I THINK WE'RE SO IRONIC SOMETIMES, HELL FUNNY LA.

AND GALD THT YOU UDS HOW I FEEEL & NEVERTHELESS , LETS NT GIV UP ALRGTS.
HANG ON , GIRL . I KNW THERS A WILL T EVRYTHING AND SURE THERS A WAY TO IT UH.
WE'RE ON THE SAMEEE BOAT AND STIL HELPG OUT, T HAV A BETTER LIFE OUT THER.

AND OFCOS , WE STIL WANS OUR ANS FRM GODDDD . IF ONLY WE KNW HW T FLY UP THER. HAHAS :D

3FEB

2007-02-03T22:15:00.000-08:00

MS MEGAN YEO WEIQI :D

twisttttttt

:p

o.o?

MRTAN&co :)

:ppppppppp

errrrr , we're inside & weiqi is outside.

seems as if i've lost my another leg. goodnessss

eyecandy!

gay.

alrgtttttts , i told myself t stay at home and study tdy. and i swear i've think of nt gg anywhr , til megan yeo weiqi called me and sayg she'll b coming over t my hse w pat. like ofcos can la , anyone wil b welcome :D
waited f long & ended up , was me who wen over t tm t meet them. lols , so i ended up stayg out al day long instead of studyg :x strolled arnd & had starbuck and al. and al of the sudden MS MEGAN YEO TOLD ME THIS :
' eh , wan g town find sarah they al anot , v bored leh. stil so early ' oh FYI , its alrdy 5 at the point of time & ms megan yeo is the first time so steady tht she can g out t town at tht point of time cos she hardly goes out far til late. soyep , as f me , i'm alwayssss tht steady , like ofcos v gald tht shes able t g tht far. so , we trained dwn while pat wen home. we crap al kind of stuffs on the train and we laugh like nobody business. its nice talkg t her & thanks f listen'g me out yea. thanks alotttt :D over t town and find sarah&co. mrtan was w them too :) didnt knw we're tht bond. dinner-ed out w them and then headed f shopg. mrtan did shopped too :D hahas , funny can ! saw his relative i think & tht baby's cuteeeeee. my anotheranother eyecandy agn ! wen off t shop f more while mrtan left first. goodness , girlsgirls ! megan &I were hell bored followg them arnd t shop f girly stuffs. so , we trained back home at 8 bcos megan yeo needed t b home alrdy.
yay ! another shop'g spree w ahchew &co tmr. i think its gna b fun uh:) hope so

i dont wna b upset agn. i wna b a happpykid
i've gt tht topic running tru my head unknowingly , whatif....
arh , forget it. i dont wan bother abt it alrdy.
I WNA G HIGH TMR :D like always , tanweiting loves being high.
rightright !

3feb

2007-02-03T13:32:00.000-08:00

dumb , i really dont knw wad t d alrdy. i cant be always tht upset over some little thing yar. if you do not knw , these past 1year , many things happened. and always , i try t keep it t myself and nt let you knw it better. i rather suffer it al myself. but being this way , it's nt any nice afteral. infact , i feel terrible breakg dwn.
ya , i'm sensitive. sometimes , i think i'm really stupid do'g al these tht i sldnt do it at al. people arnd me , asked why , why do i fall f a guy like you. thers other guys out there. but always i answered them confidently , i've nvr regret of hang on til nw bcos , you gt my life special which no other people can. bcos you're always tht nice & i cldnt bring myself t let go.
but nw , i gues i'm the one who gt it al wrong , instead i suffered more sadness than happy. but stil , i wanted t b strong . i dont wna let go so soon. i dont mind suffer'g frm al those sad things tht gt into mylife f loving you , i've endure it tru f dont knw how many months alrdy.
soyar , this past days , i can say i've been suffer'g agn. i tot evrything i've suffered was over & hav come t an end of it. but i was wrong , this thing gt me really thinkg why , why d i hav t breakdwn when i knw you've been good t me. ppl tot i was a happykid alrdy but inside , i'm really afraid tht i'll nt able t hang on any longer. it've been like a past 1year boy. and i realise , al those suffer'g gt me bcome a stronger person & mke me fall f you evn deeper each time. but this time , i really dont knw wad t d alrdy. sigh , you knw how badly i want t knw how you feel f me? i jst need an ans t it on this upcoming fourteen , boy.

2feb

2007-02-02T21:12:00.000-08:00

i find this so niceeeeee la :D

like always & forevr.

HEY, if you dont believe in me , its okay alrgts . CAUSE , YOU'VE NVR BEEN A GOOD TCHER AFTERAL.
al you knw was , crap out those you think & i've said wad i wan t say alrdy dont insult me. i said , i didnt means didnt , why do you hav t g on , accusing me. and pls , i've gt your work done & copied alrdy. and its alrgts t tell my deskmate wad t do right ? its really so damn lame alrgts f sayg me jst bcos i talked t someone, i aint disturbg your lessons anyway , so wads your hell prb , mrswee.

and wads wrong w al my sch tchers , al are like hell attitude prb. you guys call yourself a tcher somemore
and mrsum is the nicest among al afteral , he uds how we feel okay. F, THIS SCH.
or pehaps , i'm jst a burden. im such a disappointment :(

ohyar , we al flunked our amaths. HAHAS ! and gna hav remedial soon followed by re-test aftertht :) hope we dont disappoint mrsum agn uh!

aftersch , rush dwn w megan & co f jys game against macpherson. and i knw you guys played your best on court alrdy , so dont get too dwn alrdy. cheer bCg :) ended at 2 . faster cabbed back t sch myself & the driver wen one big rnd. and my 7bucks flew away jst bcos i jst hav t get back t sch f a 15-20mins meetg. goddd :(
wen off t idealshop w yann & co t find ger & co. and thn over t hav a newhair cut w ger. i think we've weird hairstyles nw . anw , back t sch t ball & thn homed alrdy. and we sneaked ger in :D

like , you told me you've read it alrdy .
but.....

like always , i've nvr change my mind of lettg go.

sigh , sorry , i know you're concern. but i dont knw how t ans you.
mayb i'm really jst fine.

1feb

2007-02-01T22:00:00.000-08:00

YAY , JAN HAD JST PAST & ITS FEB ALRDY. LIKE FINALLY , i've survived tru this one month in sch. SOYAR , and surprisingly i'm gettg on a serious business on schwrk & stuffs la. and ofcos , TANWEITING dont wan t hav tea w the dm , mrbernard la. HAHAS , so im gna continue t stuck w my newyr resolutions well , come t say abt it , i've a whole lot of it t stuck w on my list(: LIKE YOU SEE , i wan t b a good&happy kid this year. & i've done it al in this 1month so yar , f the upcoming months , i so gna stuck w it agn but pehaps afew changes la.

soyar , gt me dwn this morng. perhaps you dont knw but i've been starving myself f the past few days & i finally didnt touch my allowance so i can pay f sch things alrgts, and i manage t giv out 10bucks f tht carnival ticks and i've sold 10ticks out of 20 la , and nw you said you dont care . you wan me t sell it al. it isnt wad you said last few weeks , you told us , its okay if you didnt sell much but try right. but nobody wans t buy it ,so i save t buy it f myself okay , like god , i've tried my best alrdy & t b a better chair . and you snd as if , i'm nt a good one afteral . i find myself being a burden alrgts and cher , if you didnt realise . al of us realise you've chng much more. you aint behavg like this lastyear & nw , you kinda mke me dont feel nice talkg t you sometimes.
i'm do'g al this bcos i dont wan t ask money frm my parents , i dont wan t depend on them agn alrgts. I'M ALRDY FIFTHTEEN. and sometimes , i feel like havg a part time uh. sighhhh

& so gna flunk my amaths test. i gt my paper scribbled w craps ans & i always stuck halfway and i dont knw hw t solve it alrdy. ohyar , some of mymates always say this t mrsum :
' cher , the paper very hard lehhhhhh ! '
mrsum : ' wad d you d wen the paper is hard , PUT WATER & MKE IT SOFT LA '
hahahs , hes so funnnnnnny la :D but tcher , i'm sorry ok , cos our class gna flunk yr test so badly :x

dnt was hell sians , practical & theory. and i was so absent-minded during class. i dont knw wad t do. so yar , sch was suppose t end at 1400hours & he made us stay til 5 f extra mke up. and thanks t the dusty tech rm , i kena soreeye al of the sudden. I ALMOST GT CUT BY THE BIG SAW LA. cos i cant seeeeee :x
well , aftertht dwn t bballcourt and hangout w juniors & team. soyar , volleyball-ed w them. hell fun laaa and juniors gt me LOLS. pikachu & prettylady, youguys are funnnnnnny la :DDD

okay , i think tdy post was long , so people , happy readg it ._.
TALLEST , i knw you'll read it! LOLS :D

well , lastly
okay la , its really nice havg you w me day & night tru the fone.
and yep , i can say . its alrdy been like ayear of me wait'g
and eachday , i cherish you more&more alrgts.
but i dont knw why , i really wan you t let me knw.
let me knw how you feel. cos , i dont wan t hav high hopes anymore.

i jst wan t b happy f this upcoming valentine , boy.

31jan

2007-01-31T20:55:00.000-08:00

SCH IS GOOD TDY :D i'm attentive during chi lessons and mdm hsu said i'm a good kid tdy f the very first time. HAHAHAS , okay this is so random , ohwadevr. well , dnt was at lab 4 tdy. and we had party in ther. mrng , brought up food f us , but actually was part of the dnt activity la. soyep was fun ! he showed us the video he took aftertht & goooood , i was so dumb can. so paiseh uh :x and bcos of this stupid activity , mrng made us mkeup f another 1 & a half hr tmr after sch & last 2 periods was his lessons uh. OHSIANS & he made up 101 excuses f the reason why we've t stay. god , he win of cos ! but stil , hes nice & funny? anw , recess was as usual , stay up in class and hav fun w class. ss was goooood (: cos mr irman , was on mc HARHAR. but mrsong came in t keep a look out on my class. seriously , he look retard w his casual clothes on & he look damn nice on his formal suit. totally , 2 different person la. ahh , blahs dont wan t talk abt him , so random cannnn. well , after sch had t tke our emaths retest. LIKE WDH , she gave us the same paper agn & god bless me tht i gt it al right this time cos i dont wna t retest agn. ohbtw , yong , hav gt no voice tdy& hes like lip talkg & i cant read lip readg , so we communicate tru paper & pen. HAHAS so funny uh! soyep , headed off f trng aftertht , and first part of trng was a torture f us , mrwong scolded us f nt being loud enough & thers like 20 over of us only , and the court snd like as if thers only 5 of us. so , i shouted like the loudest so the rest can take it easy . well trng was super torture & can say , i fainted right after tht torture part. they said i was scary but sorry uh f making you guys so worried. trng got slacked after waterbreak. and i was okay by thn. but thanks t cboys , i gt hit on my jaw & i'm nw a white leg too ._.
trng ended arnd 6+ & gt home w monica aftertht. didnt i tell you , monica ng lived at the same block as me , yay ! i've ppl t acc me home alrdy. alrgts , tdy post was like so random laaaa . boringggg ! ohyar , thers amaths test tmr & i'm tired right nw , can i g t beddddd ? SMIRKS :p

AND DUMB , you're dao&
i dont knw wad t talk uh.
DUMBBBBBBBB :D

30jan

2007-01-30T21:48:00.000-08:00

alrgts , had been gg tru an unbalance diet nwadays. didnt really eatg much , i evn skip al 3 meals sometimes. but ate alittle sth ar. okay , i knw this snd OHSOCRAZY. but thn , i really dont hav the appetite. i evn feel like vomit'g wen i was smell'g those food at the canteen. so i rather stay up in class during recess. HAHAS unbelieveable yea :D wel , sch as usual. vocab test was crap , didnt learn & i jst gt al the blanks filled w ' anyhow crap in ' answers :D but stil manage t pass it. so i dont hav t stay back after sch f re-test . yay! okay jst a random one ._. ohyar , manage t pass the first one but didnt manage t pass my maths test. and mrwee told us t stay back tmr after sch t hav retest. and she demands a full marks frm evryone , if nt retest til we get it al right. LIKE GODDDDDDD! god bless al of us thn (: grins ! sighs , tests & CA coming right up soon. time f serious business frm TANWEITING :D gna work hard ! and of cos , train hard f bball too. i've my confidence back. HOW GREAT ! come t talk abt bball , aftersch . cabbed dwn t ahs w joey. manage t get in time t watch dumb's game w greenview. won of cos ! congrats la. and stayed al the way til 4 t catch cch against mjr. a nice game & they've won mjr and gt into the 2nd rnd. CONGRATS GIRLS & HUISAN , like promised t scream f you. hahas , nvm you've my support alrgts . get well soon uh ! i wan t see you back on court agn & so i can scream f you :D
takecare love. soyep , aftertht , game w jys , team & cch plyers. and i've pandaeyes ( soreeyes) like al of the sudden , and by thn my head was spin'g al along , alrgts this is scary cos i think i almost faint. evryone tot i was so duper sick & clarissa evn tot i put on makeup. ohwadevr. hahas :D wenoff at 6+ . 31-ed bac t tamp , acc sarah & co t popular and thn homed alrdy. thanks ger f acc'g me home .

and of cos , thanks dumb f concerns lar , DONT WORRY OKAY ! i'm strong rmbbbbbb :p
well , takecareee.

29JAN

2007-01-29T23:38:00.000-08:00

well , i brought up my courage t post this on agn. like last time but dont knw if you'll read it or sth. like well , had always wan t thank you. big thank f always cheerg me up , thanks f those concerns , thanks f those endless smses , thanks f tht big smile , thanks f being tht nice , thanks f evryting. although you sld knw tht i once told you tht i've fall f you and up til nw , i havent been giving up alrgts . i rmb you told me , i'll always b your best sister . i knw , its hard t accept , but really gald tht you didnt avoid me. like always , tht big smile you put on your face. but i gues , its me who have been avoid'g you since after tht . mybad , but stil you gt me back t how we used t face eachother. and sometimes , i really god feel like tellg you how much i miss you. although , we're in different sch , and last time you didnt hav time t chat w me but ended its you who tellg me ' sorry f the past few days ' alrgts , it gt me damn guitly , i dont knw why. you dont hav t sorry abt anything. but this few days, your presence , mke me a happykid.those night msg are nvr fail you see. and i wnted t tel you tht you didnt knw tht i've been fallg f you deeply each day. but i dont evn noe how you feel towards me , mayb really jst like wad you said t me last time ' jst like best sister ' sigh . it gt me keep thinkg , cos thers other ppl out ther tht you treat them jst like how you treat me? i really gt me thinkg & sometimes , it gt me break down easily. god , wad happeded t me.

to: stupid dumb dumb dumb dumb ! ( you sld knw who you are)

29jan

2007-01-29T20:11:00.000-08:00

cheese :D

i've nth better t say.

._.

family :O

COOL [:

kimsiong shades o.o

god , this gt me, LOL alrgts.

nvr fail being one :O

eeeeeefan .

fishball & bazhang.

night bfore christmas.

:D my photo partner

fan & kenji

math & mypartner jonathan fan .

my class , 3g2 :D

this idt. :x

a random one ._.

see , cute right.

mon mon mon agnnnnnn.sch was alrgts , at except f the afternoon assembly.and tdy i wasnt feelg good in class , had cramps & evryone tot i was damn sick. decided nt t eat but i ate some chocos :D ohyar , my class is like damn cute la , evryone ask the 2 bryan t g dwn & buy food up and eat. anw, was havg rehearsal this morng f the class chair sthsth ... was like god & goodness. so lame ar ! and during assembly , i was oh god paiseh ! evrybody was staring at us. luckily thers kel bside me. if nt i gna b so damn paiseh ! wel thers phototaking aftertht , thts the only nice part among al :D headed home quickly aftersch. thers trng but was nt gg tdy. gt home , gt chng up & my dad drove me dwn t get my ic done :D alrgts , like finally i've ic and i looooook OHSODUMB on the picture. gooooood la , I DEMAND A RETAKE ! hahas :x actually wanted t g back f trng , but thers no time alrdy plus i've gt cramps tdy. a serious one. my dad was rushg in time f work , so he drop me dwn at tm & i wen t find kris & co. they're lining up f the feilunhai sthsth i gues. and the queue is like fuckg long , frm 4th floor can line til 1st floor i think? wen off w kris , saw kimsiong , so he acc us arnd :D mac-ed and slack over. stroll arnd tm aftertht til 6+.ger came along aftertht.andand he treated us choco :D & he almost lost his damn wallet at TOY-R-US. well , no energy t type alrdy la , overal we had fun in tm :) and many pictures taken too. how nice :D

stupidddd dumbdumb pig! alrgts , thanks f concerns always & endless chatting , good guy :D

28JAN

2007-01-28T20:47:00.000-08:00

alrgts , i gt my mom worried ytd night. so sorry , mom. sigh , let it bygones bygones. had been stressed out lately , no matter hw hardwork'g i've been. gues i've t work doublely hard uh. got up this morng , eyes were swollen. nobody's arnd at home. called up & mom told me thers breakfast f me by my aunt. so i wen search'g up & down in the kitchen. and god damn hell , thers actually dont hav any left f me okay. & thers nth tht i can eat at home. so , i was empty stomach al day long tdy. cldnt get any food frm outside , cos i've no cash w me. well , endurance is a good thing uh , i actually survived tru out eh. but nw , i feel nt right alrdy . i feel like puking. goodness gracious ! and yes , had been rush'g my work tdy. thers sch tmr , and i've rehersal tingy f the classchair thingy f assembly tmr. & i'm gna mke my NRIC tmr aftersch. thers trng , team i try t b back asap okay !

ohyar , i think my class theme is so cool uh : ' night bfore christmas ' nice right ? :D i think the deco gna b great . gna see hw issit by tmr. goodie (:

stupid dumboooooooooooooooooo :D

28jan

2007-01-28T01:45:00.000-08:00

hais , jst bloody fcukg alrgts , I DONT KNW HW AM I GNA SURVIVE THIS YEAR 2007. TOT GNA B A GOOD YEAR AHEAD. BUT MY NEW YEAR REVOLUTIONS WERE JST SHIT. okay , at least i get wad i wnted t b. at least a hardwrkg person this year , jst t work hard f studies & I HELL SWEAR THT I'VE STUDY STUDY STUDY. okay i admit , i used t b a playful one, but nw i'm like over hardwrk'g alrdy. normal ppl at least 1day of break in a week , i'm like a full time student. non-stop of mugging f 24/7. tot i gna b a gd chair in class or evn a gd captain oror evn the gd fren among my grp of frens , but i think i dont evn noe hw t manage my damn hell time . studies , class , basketball , frienships/relationships. i've my mates , myclique , myteam , myohgdfren outside. but i dont really knw hw t spend more time w them. al i knw was t study al day long , evn if i get stress over studies . i bcame like insane , stress'g out myself , tellg myself wad the fuck i've gt t d nw , i dont evn noe hw t slove those damn qns. and like nw , i finally wnted t take a damn rest , a reward f me f being so hardwrk'g each day , but nobody is free t acc me out f a shopping spree. like hell shit alrgts . i'm really sick of it. damn tired of evrything . jst forget it , i might as well b a fuckg loner & g out t town & anywhr myself . isnt tht b great. i think its gna b so much fun uh. i'm nt like any other kids who hav great family t b always w them , t hav great frens tht are so steady tht anytym anyplace wil be free t g out w. i'm jst no ordinary okay , i'm so different , but i pretend t b like the others. i've no plans nw f tmr , no frens free t acc , no family tht are always tht free t b w . forget it , shall jst mug at home agn. i'm jst a fucktard.